Unless you open up and share your feelings, no one can understand what you’re going through.

Life

Tanna ni nare tanna ni naro tane tane taa 🙃

Caregiver

Hiii

3am Thoughts

Guys I’m fuming. When I was younger my relationship with my sister was strained because of our 7 year age gap. I wanted to play hide and seek and she wanted to know about the new app Facebook. As I grew older I understood her more and I wasn’t as upset for the way she treated me in our younger years. Over the past 3 years we got closer than we have ever been. However, when we have fights I see reflections of her past actions and attitudes towards me, she uses the same manipulative techniques and in the end I’m always left being the bigger person, apologising first and going back to that small girl. 

This fight we are having has lasted 3 weeks, she’s going through a though time but at the same time so am I. I’ve been trying to be kind to her mental health but I know there’s a massive breakdown/meltdown coming. I can’t keep fighting with her but I can’t keep making myself upset living with the fact I’m not happy with the way she treats me. 

My parents are upset because I live in a household that views the older sibling deserves respect because they are older. Even if they are in the wrong. I’m not trying to be a bitch but as my sister she knows exactly how to trigger me then expects me not to be upset. I’ve never seen her act this way ever and I honestly haven’t been this unhappy for ages. It’s not like us to not talk for 3 weeks and it’s causing tension in the house. She talks to me like a dog.  Luckily, I go back to uni soon and that will allow me some air to breathe.

Anyway I’m done I just wanted somewhere to let out my frustration. I know that at the end of the day I’ll go back to being the “bigger person” which I hate so much because it’s like invalidating my feelings when really I should be fighting. 

Adulting

**Dreaming**
So for some reason I keep dreaming of someone. 
Someone I've never met before. 
I seem to be happy with him in my dream.
He understands me, and cares. He doesn't fake it.
But it's just a dream. Can it be telling me something ?
Is my "love" life just a dream ? Is it never going to happen ?
Maybe it's telling me it isn't for me. It isn't reality.
I don't know but I lately haven't been having the best love life.
I mean I push away people a lot. 
This is bc I don't want to get attached.
And I think it's the best thing to do.
Can someone help me, understand my dream ?
Or how not to get attached ? I think it's unhealthy for me. ❤

-xoxo ❤

Dreams

I tried to research the app, but I don't understand how the app is used! I also can't see if the people above are real!

Immigration

🎶 Kabhi aate jaate raste me
Kabhi school ke baste me
Dhoonde to mil jaega
Ek naya idea 🎶

Music

Let me share my mistake and idc who's gonna believe me or not but i hope someone listen... So about a year ago i'm dating a girl... Lets call her shelly and the first month until the 8 month was fine but then we started arguing for i started drinking and forgot to take care of her or show her some love to the point where i've became abusive like hurt her sometimes(not physically) but just verbally so she gets tired of me, she broke up with me and I've regreted all of my decisions. I've become depressed for a month and my best friend been helping me move on. He also helps me enters his company, meet with other people and my life became joyful once more. After 6months has passed everything been going great for me got myself a new house and car and after that my best friend asked me to talk with him for he got something to tell me and so we meet up and we buy drinks and get straight to the point and he told me that him and shelly was actually dating for a month now and i got shocked, i didn't talk for a few minutes. He apologies to me then i just said that its all fine and told him my story when i was still dating her and told him to pls not Repeat the same mistake as i did. A few months passed i started dating someone in our company and we went to the beach to celebrate our 3rd Monthsary today and i saw shelly with my best friend smiling and they're both having fun. I've cried for a little knowing that the girl i've abused was in a good hand now, my girlfriend noticed me and then we talked about my passed and she comforted me. And Now me and my best friend is gonna marry our girls tomorrow... And don't worry i've change, i've learned from my mistake and i won't do it again. 

Friends

Okay. How to say this? But I need to start some way.
I am 17 year old girl. I was trying my heart and soul to get taller but just stucked in 4ft 7. How abnormal is that? Some may think that I shouldn’t bother about it. It is my body and maybe it's my fate so that's unchangeable. Worrying about it won't help and I should focus on other things. Trust me, I tried. I tried for 17 years of my life and whenever I tried to do something, I got humiliated. People laugh at me seeing my height as it seems like a kid. I know it’s weird but that's hard for me to stay in places where I am treated like a clown 24/7. Do I deserve this? My parents are also short so at some point, I got to know that I won't be growing anymore. When I didn’t even grow in my growth stage, how can I grow at the end of my growth stage? But I knew, nothing is impossible. So I start gathering courage and again worked hard. Tried to do many stretches and drink milk but all in vain. Nothing has changed. It pains a lot when stretch my legs and arms. I was just that close from crying because my body was being weak and hurting a lot from doing these. But at the end of the day, my hard work didn’t pay off. It was not worthy. What to do? I still didn’t become hopeless cause I know I have to live. And here, people continuously judged me. My friends, my cousins, teachers, neighbours, shopkeepers everyone just stare at me when they find my age. Some people laugh in front and some in back. I always tried to ignore but how long? How long a person can? It is obvious that a person will feel bad and be in depression. Was it my fault? What did I do to deserve this? I see my friends getting proposal from boys and I am here treated like a baby. Not nicely but mockingly. It just doesn’t feel good. It's actually not their fault also. They will obviously laugh at me cause I am just not normal. I look weird for my age. I get it. No guy will be interested in me. How can I live my life alone with no partner? It scares me. My parents won't be always there with me. They are good but thet are also worried about me thinking how will I survive in future. I am also scared. Even if I study hard, I will be a joke in colleges, universities and maybe in offices too. Going to school is really hard for me. I always get the undesirable stares and laughs. I just can't tolerate this. It also affects my mental health and I am unable to focus on anything. Even I want to develop my skills and be the better version of myself, I will have to go somewhere to take courses and guess what? I will have laugh there too.Everyone laughed at me when I was taking English courses. So thats not made. Thats gonna be true. It makes me cry. I can't even stand in the society properly. I wish, our society was less judgemental. I see no hope for my future. I fear when my parents leave me, I will be all alone. These thoughts kill me inside. I know worrying won't help but these worries just come. How can I ignore these when I know these are going to be true? 

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