Under-confident and Confused
The rational part of my head understands very well that if a job opportunity comes my way I should take it and try my best to do it.
I’ve been slacking way too much at my current job because of my very affected mental health and even though I don’t take it for granted it feels like I am.
I’m tired of planning my work, scheduling my days and trying to be one percent better everyday and not achieving anything at the end.
The second opportunity is a freelance opportunity I’m very much qualified for but in my head I’m thinking if I can’t to do my one job just fine, should I even take up a responsibility that I may not be able to fulfill.
I really wish I had the courage and energy to do both jobs. This is my time and age. If not now, when?
But this fleeting time feels like such a burden and I’m burning out.
I have been diagnosed with BPD, OCPD, Depression and Anxiety recently.
First of all calm down…This is not the end of the world. Take one step at a time. First try to handle one job, gain some confidence,be better at it and go with the other one. Always have faith in urself. Best of luck!
