Um well I am meant to like my life and be great full but every time I want to be grate full I find the bad things and honestly I just want my life to end. I’m watching my best friend slowly leave me and I thought I found a genuine guy but he turned out to be out like every other guy I think is nice and wants to get to know me personally. I feel like my whole life is falling apart and I have no one to tell and I just want this all to go away. This feeling. I just wish someone would notice in how much pain I’m in. Also I’m doing really bad in school which just bring my mental health even more down then it already is. And I constantly feel like ending my life and I just wish you could go to sleep and never wake up. I also feel like sometimes I have depression because I’m literally never happy anymore like I would kill to just have one last happy moment. But everytime I care about someone they always seem to leave. And to top most of this I starve myself most of the day and when I do eat it’s very little and I workout for like 3 hours because of insacurities which is awesome cause I can’t stop
working out is really good, but don’t starve yourself. think of it this way, if you starve yourself, then the working out will not result in anything. also, work out for yourself. trust me, you don’t have to be a certain body type to be acceptable. beauty standards keep changing, but we can’t keep changing ourselves right? its best to be confident in your own skin. self love is very hard, but certainly achievable. I’ve been where you are right now, and trust me, it will get better. if your friend is leaving you, then you can try and mend things with her. but if she doesn’t care, then it’s better to let go of toxic people. as for guys, you will see that a lot of these crushes /relationships will fail in the future as well, but that’s the part of being young as well. don’t focus on grades now, focus on loving yourself. your marks will come up eventually. study with a goal, that you will prove yourself to everyone and they’ll see what they lost. leave everyone who wronged you behind and focus on yourself. be selfish for a while. don’t put people above you, put yourself first. and please, please hang on… I promise it gets better. there are people who love you, and things that you will conquer. you are very much important, and I’m sorry if the world told you otherwise… I really hope this helps :)
