Trigger Warning - Can possibly trigger anxiety or unwanted thoughts if your disorder functions on escalated levels and reacts to negative stimuli almost immediately.
Hi, I hope this message finds you in your greatest health and spirit.
If you’re going through a heartbreak right, one so where you know where no matter if you still love him/her/them, but to leave things behind for good is what you need right now, maybe I can help you.
You just came out of a heart break, and you’ve allowed yourself to heal in a beautiful, beautiful manner where you choose not to sulk in a pool full of self hate and misery but to acknowledge your feelings and talk about it. And you should DEFINITELY give yourself credit for that.
We all have certain coping mechanisms which helps us in managing, adapting and acting upon some internal or external stresses which we appraise as taxing. And when they say, to each counts their own individuality, we all are going to have different coping mechanisms as well.
And it could be news to you, I’ve come out of one own recently. Or we can say I was living in a solid shell of denial for the last six months until I decided it was enough for me.
The way I cope is, to not worry about someone, I’ve to keep their existence out of my mind frame. It might seem odd to you at first, but understand me. The very fact that he is there, probably laughing over some political joke right now, or listening to Khalid, or studying rotation sends my body for a toss. And not kidding, I can feel sweat forming on the nape of my neck, my breathing is uneven and I can feel knots tugging inside of my chest. And with someone suffering from anxiety disorder already, I shouldn’t even be writing about this. (TW : Please hit the home button right now if this makes you uncomfortable)
But the difference here is, I’m not ridiculing myself for having these feelings. For missing him, for seeing my body react to change like this or for just existing at all. And you have to do the same, you don’t have to ridicule yourself for having feelings, they make you human. Allow them to flow, and allow yourself to heal. It might feel like the end of the world now, does to me too. But you also have to realise that heartbreaks are just a bump on the road. One day you’ll find someone who will be worth your time and energy, and you’ll be thankful that this did not work out. Good people end up with good people.
Channelise the energy you spend in listening to Arijit Singh or Hozier, Binging unendingly on something to avoid thinking about it, checking upon their instagrams or monitoring their following and followers list into something more productive and useful. Such as this, write and help people out whenever you can. I know it’s easier said than done, but when it’s done, it’s going to be worth it.
Love and Light, T.
I actually felt every word you wrote down to my bones. It’s so liberating to know I’m not alone in struggling to move on, and its not wrong of me to put my feelings before his. If you’ve got this, I think I’ve got this too! No drunk texts to this boy anymore, I can move on. I have so many other productive things I could be doing instead :)
I liked this person for 1 year. We never dated but i knew there was “something” between us. We stopped talking some time ago because of some misunderstandings and only I know how i dealt with it. I couldn’t sleep for 2 weeks. I used to wake up in the middle of the night, extremely anxious, waiting for a text that would never come. It was such a mental toll on you, it feels as if your entire world has come crashing down.