Galexia @galexia
Transformation.
Iβm working understanding myself, Iβm learning and I feel. As I do this, I let myself be me; no judging and no punishment. Iβm feeling. The pain, the shame, the sadness, the happiness, the calm, the angriness, the emptiness, everything. I remember and my body does too. But these memories, this past meβ¦ does not define me anymore. I was, I learned, I go on. They shaped me as a person, yet they arenβt me. I made mistakes, and Iβm thankful for them. No matter how much they hurt me, Iβm glad for the bitter experience. They expand my perspective, make me able to feel towards me and others. Make me understand better.
Now that I learned, to keep learning and understanding new things I have to heal. I have to forgive myself, not listening to my ego or those intrusive thoughts we all know well. I have to forgive others not for their sake, but for my own sanity. I donβt need punishment, the shame. I donβt need to keep suffering, no one and not even God is telling me that I still need to do that; to suffer.
Iβm still working my feelings and my thoughts. Is tough. Very tough. But not impossible. To reach my constant transformation and change, I need to do all of these things. I need to remember and feel, without judging, and let myself be. Meditate and reflect about it, trying to understand myself and how to grow better. No matter how cheesy or even corny this all sounds, itβs the truth Iβm trying to accept. I do my own change, I decide to leave this hole.
If you read this, I encourage you to grow and change. Keep this constant transformation and keep learning, work with yourself and not against. Donβt listen to your ego and bad thoughts. Youβre capable of so many things, the first step is believing. You can manifest what your heart desires, you can do so much more. But to do all that, you need to know yourself more and transform. Feel, learn, heal.
Iβm taking my first step, Iβm excited walking these baby steps towards my transformation. Something transformed in me the moment I broke the loop by changing the mindset I was living by for years, what the HELL: my whole life. Iβm not giving up. Iβm walking and Iβm finally deciding to live.
Transform yourself, donβt scratch the surface. Go deeper. Feel it. Investigate more. Fall the times you need to fall, take this time to be and exist. You can do it
" I have to forgive others not for their sake, but for my own sanity. "
SO TRUE. And no you do not sound cheesy at all. What you wrote here is so important. Thank you so much for sharing.