Tomorrow is my boyfriend's birthday but I can't gift him anything... I can but I don't know his exact address... Neither he tells me...
I am just thinking how can I wish him...

We will meet after his birthday around 15 apr

I case he uses snap chat u can get his location if ur familiar with the locality 

In case he uses snap chat u can get his Adress if ur familiar with the locality 

Boyfriend

Hey , anyone want to have a conversation am bored. Feel free to text 

Friends

sometimes my mother curse me like "you won't be successful, you will suffer like me ... etc. " when we have even slightest quarrels and it really makes me think will my dream won't come true , will I lose my battle as whatever she says becomes true. I know she loves me and she prays for my success though!

*Smile, Happiness looks gorgeous on you!* 
To someone out there🌻

Motivation

My mom is doing it again , taunting me everything I do , she literally just hates me ! I don't wanna feel this pain again , bcz my heart physically hurts 

Family

The desire to be loved and the desire to be known are overwhelming today. :/

3am Thoughts

Internet is very addictive. Whether it's movies, or shows, or chatting or just checking out my feed, it takes up a lot of my time and I feel like I'm gradually losing hold of my actual world and my work ethics. 

Mental Health

I’m just on the edge right now. School is exhausting, friends asking me to help them out with their problems even tho I have my own to deal with, my mental health going down every day, every minute and every second. This is just to much to think about. Why am I feeling like shit? I’m sure more than a thousand people would kill to have my life right now because they have it so much more difficult, but why do I still feel like this? Why doesn’t it go away? I shouldn’t be complaining right? My life is probably a lot better than other so why do I still feel like I’m at the bottom of the world? 
Why do I still feel as if I’m going to fall to the ground any second and just break down crying? Hurting, cutting and screaming hasn’t been the same anymore. Now it’s just a distraction, just a few seconds of that feeling I try to grab onto, I just try to swim back to the surface without any hope. I’m just lost in this state of mind, where everything is black. 

-“Look at that pretty girl” 
-“Aw look at that baby”
-“That car looks expensive”
-“Your dreams will come true”
-“I love you”

-I mean really? All I can think about is that pretty girl.. she has the perfect body. No fat, good thighs, well shaped face and beautiful hair. I don’t have any of that, so who would want me anyway? 
-That baby? It’ll grow old and die anyway, I don’t see the point in trying to make a new living being if it’s going to die someday. 
-That car? It’ll probably kill someone one day. 
-My dreams? I wish I were fucking dead. You still think it’ll come true?
-You love me? No, you don’t. You show it to me, you tell me you love me, you prove it to me. But yet, in the back on my mind I don’t feel loved. I feel as if I’m bothering you with my presence, I feel as if I’m just dust on your shoulder that you’ll brush off one day. I feel as if I’m nothing to you. 

All of that, it’s just because of that stupid little voice in my head. Changing reality to my worst nightmares. Why can’t it just stop? I’m tired of living like this, I’m tired of fighting for my life every day and I’m tired of having to fake a fucking smile. Why.. why can’t it just go away. All I’m asking is to be left alone.. All I’m asking is to be understood. That’s it. But no, that’s to much to ask for. Everything I ask for is to much right? 

GOD DAMNIT! JUST HEAR ME! HEAR ME CRYING OUT FOR HELP... HEAR ME SCREAMING TO BE FREED FROM THIS STATE OF MIND THAT TRAPS ME IN A DARK PLACE.. A PLACE I WANT TO LEAVE! PLEASE?! JUST.. just listen.. just be there for me when I need it the most. I know it’s hard but I’m just tired. I feel myself slowly losing my own life, I fear the day I’m going to commit. But at the same time, I’m happy. So please, help me. I’m mentally drained and physically done. 


Is ignoring your ex the best revenge? I feel so lonely and helpless. I have no one to talk to, but I still choose to not reply to someone who did so much bad to me. Revenge might not be the best word, I just don't know what word will fit right. I am so confused. I need to talk to someone about my feelings, but it's just not him that I want to talk to. I also don't have many friends in real life or on the internet. Am I doing right by ignoring him? I just need some advice, I want to share and feel good maybe

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