Today's question- What were those precious words
that are still there in your heart?

The only reason I trust in love is the way I love...

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3am Thoughts

In my highschool i fell for a girl she is the most beautiful girl i ever met. She had a boyfriend than. She is now my best friend it is been 10+ years i have tried everything (making new femal friends, moving on to a girl who rejected me) but nothing works and i am still in love with her. The problem is i have to stay by her side but I can not approach her. Anyone can approach her but not me. This hurts me on the daily basis that i have to be along side her, due to some medical condition my heart does not allow me to leave. 

Lonely

I'm normally here giving advice but this time, I need advice.

My Story: I spent 18 years in the US. In a city where at that time, the majority ethnicity was black. I wasn't treated nicely by some of the folks there because I was a minority. It never reached the level of being racially profiled by the police but it was by my peers, a handful of times by teachers and even a manager. I was socially nurtured to hold the belief that if your discrimination did not go to the level of systemically being profiled (by the police) then your experience did not matter.

So I move to the UK - tired of living in such a divided country. I also wanted to shield my husband from that sort of abuse so I moved abroad.

Cue the pandemic.

A few weeks after being in lockdown, one of my managers in my office messages me. Asking me how I'm coping with the Quarantine- especially me being a BAME (Black And Minority Ethnicity). My first response to that was: Wut? I'm a BAME? Huh. I started thinking about that. Yes. Perhaps I am. I'm half Japanese and half White and I'm an US citizen. I guess I am a minority here in the UK.  

This idea, never occurred to me. Why? Because I grew up being told that my experiences did not matter.

Cue in the BLM (Black Lives Matter) movement. Here we go again, right? I look at their website- it just talks about yet again  the systemic racism against Black people and NO ONE else. Do I think this struggle exists? Absolutely. Do I think it could be done differently? You're darn right.

Cue in today:

Some of my work colleagues created a Microsoft Teams group called BAME Staff Discussion. Two are Afrikaans. One is from Barbados, one is from the UK but is half black, half white and the other is Indian and then me. But they're discussing BLM & the inequality that they've experienced. And what happens with me? I feel shame. I feel like a fraud. I feel shame because I cannot voice MY experience of being discriminated against by black people because I was taught by American society that my experiences don't matter. I feel shame because I was discriminated against by an employer who was from India. He paid me less for not being from the country he and the other staff were from. So, this shame; the one I've carried for 30 years rises up in my heart, my throat. And it makes me feel like a fraud. A fake BAME. 

Do I come clean with them and hope that they don't invalidate my experiences? Or do I continue to stay quiet?

Thank you for reading.

Discrimination

Why is it like your parents favour one child over other? I tried to make peace with this fact that maybe my brother is not as strong headed as me, so that can be the reason for the soft corner. But, when you feel constantly attacked you lose your shit -_-

How difficult is it to know what you like and feel 


Anxiety

If you are in relationship with someone and you fall in love with other person. You want to come into relationship with him/her. 
Will this be called as a cheating like he/she didn't come into a relationship or did any other stuff but yea he/she fall in love with him/her...

is tuna still good after being refridgerated?

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