Today Thursday November 19, 2020. Where to even start you know! Well im in this thing called recovery and I am high as a kite right now! I’m so ashamed of myself, I feel disgusting for doing drugs. I hope someone know what I mean when I say I have a empty space in my heart or mind that I am trying to fill. And im happy which is the worst part, why did I do this. Now comes the lies and uncontrollable hurricane 🌀 that I know so well. I don’t know what to do it is 3:44 a.m and I haven’t slept one bit. Monday you I have to be at work at 7am and I run the place!!! Feeling kinda like I have no one to talk to who won’t just say the obvious, like you were doing so good what happened? Just need to vent some before I lose my mind××××
Babe, you got this, make yourself a diary and pen down your tied up feelings, untie them in that book, read it aloud, tear the paper, throw away the drugs you take, and i know it’s hard, but not too hard to save yourself.
I know I was a drug addict for a long time I have 5 years clean now. It took everything I had in me to get clean cuz I know that drug of your choice its like it has your soul in its hand! Don’t be ashamed we struggle a little before we get it . Getting clean is one of the hardest things a person could go threw and trust me its not easy on the other side once u get there but if u want it keep fighting and never give up !