Today the guy i liked was talking about marrying someone in future (not me ofcourse) but this time it didn't hurt me like it used to it was more like some friend is complaining that i wanna marry and not the guy i liked once 
Maybe i am almost over him because at times it hurts and at times iam completely fine
I hope it all ends coz I don't even like the idea of realtionship or dating so i am pretty good on my own😭🤦‍♀️

Nah it's not like hypocrisy dating and all is nice but tbh if i would have the control over my feelings then i won't fall for anyone coz I don't like the idea of dating i would be lying if i say i always hate dating sometimes I do want it but mostly I don't i am fine with him liking anyone he wants but i just wished it was me 

Yahh i last cried for him on Jan 2 I haven't since then but who knows what i am holding inside

I actually don't realise what I am actually holding on because i keep trying to runaway from that conversation with myself like it all just happens out of the blue(mostly because of his actions)it comes out to me one day that I have been holding all that inside

Crush

People be falling in love here without seeing his/her face... But that's great hope you don't fall out of it ☺️

3am Thoughts

People are fake, every tging is fake, love is fake, don't believe anybody, do not marry because of love,  never be Dependant on anybody, people sucks, life sucks.

Adulting

There is no such thing called a perfect closure. It's a scam. Accept what they did and move on.

Any horror movie suggestions??

Friends

I feel like crying rn and I am so frustrated at myself rn bec i just realised that all these people I’ve been w in my last few years of college( in my final year now) were all critical, negative, manipulative , toxic and hurtful. And being around people like that has effected me a lot.  I have a v low self esteem and Confidence bec these people especially a girl, she constantly criticised and said bad things intentionally abt my work, my passion, she always had to debate w me. And then I try to prove her aghhh i hate it. I have been self loathing so much recently. I am so scared. Like fr. Of all these people. Even when I have cut them all now, maintaining a distance. I still am afraid now of meeting the wrong people like this again in the future and letting it affect me so much to the point I lose some part of myself. I feel so frustrated and helpless rn, literally want to go back home to mumma or smth.

Colleague

How you guys feeling let me know about you all one good quality that you also like it

Feeling devastated as my 9 month old baby suddenly feeling comfortable with strangers rather than me.
We recently hired a babybsitter on 2nd January. Previously we had one whom we have to let go due to negligence handling baby and lots of leaves. My baby had stranger anxiety and normally doesn't go to anyone and even if she does, in few minutes starts crying to come to me. Even if she is with her dad. But suddenly after spending time for 1 day with new baby sitter, next day my baby started behaving the opposite. She refused to come to me and if I holded her, tried to search for baby sitter. Now the worst part is that she is avoiding me, even feeds and just tries to escape from me. 
This is the worst feeling for me to see my child avoiding me. I discussed with my husband but he says not to think too much. But as a mom, how can I remain calm in this situation. 

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