today my mom got mad at me just because I failed my exams. the exam was kinda easy but I took a blurry pic and sent it to my teacher. I hate this so much. couldn't the teacher say something about it at least? now I'm stressed out and feel useless to this family my mom laughs at my ambitions and my plans. she said, "you think you achieved that kind of thinking?" just could you shut up for a sec you lied to me about everything. you lied that my father would come back. you lied and hide me from the truth. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I CRIED? HOW MANY DAYS AT NIGHT? wondering and feeling guilty. I wish I could tell you this but nobody would understand my mental state. there's more but I couldn't remember because my memory was lost. I wish I could just be left alone. I love you but let me live a life stop controlling me.

what just because of a exam and just because of blurry pic omg what teacher is she cant she ask u to sent one more proper pic aghh 

Family

Is there any scope in pyschology .I thinking to do master in pyschology...btech .cousell me.

Job Security

Psychologists are people with emotional logic. 

Train yourself to be your own Psychologist. 

Psychology

How much does a doctor earn?

So today I feel so sad and I found myself typing here lol. I got the result of my entrance exam for college and I didn’t pass. My family were disappointed at me. I did my best in taking the exam, I even reviewed but nothing came up in the exam. I feel like im very useless and stupid. They told me that I didn’t take my exam seriously. I told myself why would I not take that exam seriously if thats the only school you wanted to go. My parents doesn't even like me to take an entrance exam in other schools. Everytime that I think about it makes me wanna cry. Im here sharing what I feel because I dont open up with other people because they share it with others. I dont know. Im tired of life rn. Im losing hope. What wrong did I do to deserve these kind of treatment? All I wanted was to pass my exam. Im so done with life🥺😢😭

Stress

My dad isn’t talking to me cuz my exam didn’t go well and he doesn’t understand that i did work hard and you can’t be good at every subject.

I am stressed about my career. I ruined my JEE as well as my boards. My parents were soo mad at me and I was devastated. My brother talked us out of it and told me to switch career with whatever I like. I wanted to persue BMM but I couldn't get admission in any good college and that would have been total waste of my career. So I went for BMS. Again the admission portal was closed and I was so stressed. My parents were already mad at me for not being able to clear JEE like my brother did. He graduated from SPIT, andheri. He was also offered a seat in BITS mesra. So basically I was a complete failure in front of my dad. So I had two choices at that point, to take admission in some shit af college ( why am I even calling it a college? Its merely a 3 floor building with no campus, no good teacher, not even a canteen and with all the local students who take admission there just for the sake of getting a college degree as its affiliated to Mumbai University) and the other option was to stay home for an year, again prepare for JEE, face my parents mocking and ruin my life all over again. So yes basically I chose the former. My brother supported me, said score good marks in sem 1 and 2 and we'll transfer you to another MU affiliated college. I was happy, in all the chaos that was my 1 hope. Life f****d me all over again when we faced the outbreak of this pandemic! Exams were cancelled so I just couldn't take admission elsewhere! All my hopes shattered. In college I made few friends, but no one is interested in studies. I had no commerce background, I managed to study the basics of accounting and no one would believe this, but yeah i am the smartest one is my class! The teachers around couldn't even speak proper English. They give us all the questions before exam and that's it. Their work is done. But what's more horrible is even after having the question bank, no one managed to score even an 8 sgpa, except for me and yes a couple of other students. Urgh!! I am suffering from imposter syndrome, and things like this makes it even worse. Now I don't know whether I actually managed to score such great marks or is it because of the stupid faculty who's distributing marks for free. None of my friends are passionate about studies, career. Like you know how they say, hang out with smart people and people who talk about ideas, where the f*** do I find these people? I really wanna know. Like I have a big goal, I need to be around people who share the same goal, who motivates me when I am down, but not 1 person in my friends circle is like this! Who am I supposed to share all my feelings and ideas with? And what sucks the most is when you see people who were always behind you in school, are now doing exceptionally well and getting admission in great college while you take admission in a college which is way way worse than even the school you passed out from. I always wanted to be an IAS officer. It was a childhood dream. So during the whole 2020 I started my preparation. My brother however was not happy with my decision, asked me to drop this thought and get my a** back in corporate sector. He said its great that I am thinking about something like this, but i should not do anything to fail again in life. This would make me feel useless and ofcourse piss off my dad even more. I was myself in doubt because I knew its very hard, and I couldn't clear it in first attempt and I needed something to pull me up, not push me further down from where I already am. So I listened to what he said and now I am preparing for CFA. Also looking for some internships. But some how i don't really know what i want to do in life. I was not sure about upsc, I am not sure about cfa either. Like people already know what they are good at and they are following their passion. But is it just me who absolutely has no clue what to do in life or what are is my passion? I enjoy painting and stuff, but I can't do one by myself, so like what's my strength? Boy am I clueless! This has caused a lot of stress to me. I don't know if I could ever get the job or the company I want to because of my academic background. I don't want to be a failure. I am s*** scared each passing day of my life. Have I really ruined my life? Is there really no hope?
To anyone who actually read this, may god really bless you for listening to my whining. 

Career

Hi.
I am not okay. 
my parents want me to become a doctor. But I want to do something else. Even I had thought of becoming a doctor cuz of which I had opted for biology in 11th grade but I passed 12th this year and found out that my interest lies elsewhere. But when I told them that, their behaviour became really toxic. They laughed at me, said things to me.. guilt tripped me by saying that I have reduced their lifespan.. that I'm a cheater. My parents allowed me to pursue my dream but even now my mother comes to me and starts crying. She says "we have done so much for you, you should also prove yourself and make us happy. You are playing with your career. Medicine is such a secure and respected profession."

In their opinion, there is no profession greater than a doctor's and that all doctors earn so well and even if they aren't successful at least they'd earn enough to support a family. (That's the case in India Idk about other countries.)

I feel anxious and scared at my home all the time.. I want to run away from here.. it's really toxic. 
I have always been an underconfident person. Now when I was FINALLY sure about what I want to do and was willing to work hard day and night, they are pulling me down and making me lose my confidence all over again.
The last three months have been really hard for me.. anxiety took over me.. so much so that it affected me not only mentally, but my physical health also deteriorated.
I feel on edge.
I really don't know what to do. Did I make the right choice by listening to myself? I know I took the decision late but I am only human. I have always lived in so many restrictions that I didn't even know what all options were opened for me. Ever since I was a child, I used to hear about just these two professions- engineer and doctor.

These days I don't feel like talking to anyone. I zone out. I start crying randomly. I get dreams of my mother taunting me and showing me the bills of things as they think I only want to waste their hard earned money and nothing else. I thought I needed therapy.. but when I spoke to a psychologist, they said that not me but my parents need therapy more than me. I know they are concerned for me and want me to have a secure career, but if that's the case then every child would only pursue something that gave security irrespective of whether they are interested in it or not.

What are your thoughts on this?

Parenting

I'm pursuing a degree in Psychology, and I'm very happy with my choice. But I don't know where to go from here. My parents are not very satisfied with my choice because they think I "deserved" something more challenging. But I'm happy being here and I can't let them know about my confusion regarding my career path; they would surely question me. 

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