Today
My group of friends were in the washroom
They thought i already left
and I was in one of the stalls of the restroom 
and I heard everything they said about me
it was too bad
I hate them
I'm just badly hurt T_T


They told a lot mean things like
" She's mean, a bitcchh
she has ego ad attitude
and why can't we just remove her from our group
and it's good we didn't invite her to the party 
it would've been ruined
she acts so childish, bragging about her boyfriend (though i never do)
she just has ego of her scores
mostly, she's sleeping with the professors to get grades"
also, i ordered a vibrator just because i wanted it (ykwim haha)
my roomie saw it 
and they were like 
" You know what she ordered a vibrator, what a h@rny a$$ b|tch, also she has some weird kinkks haha, weird and creepy"
they said many worse things
which I can't even say here
I'm just done



Tired of fake peoples be real to me.

Depression

I think being real is awesome!! What you think?

Now&Me Thinks

I hate shit that's one sided.
It may be friendships or relationships...I hate it

Mental Wellbeing

**realizations**

Yesterday night, I was suffering from extreme mood swings. I couldn't control it. I was at a loss. However, it gave me (maybe) permanent realizations.

The people I treated as friends don't match my ideals. They think differently as I am and didn't bother to care about my feelings. I mean, I'm really okay if they are frank about those things about me. Unfortunately, they are too coward to answer the reality to me. 

I think it's a toxic friendship. I deeply respect their thoughts and accept that we are different. Yet they can't do the same. What matters to them the most is this so-called "Freedom of Speech" and handle it irresponsibly.

I just think of it. I deserve to detach toxicity that harmed me and hindered me from moving forward.  I deserve to choose who to befriend. It's not wrong. It's better to hurt their feelings straightforward than to interact with lies. 



Friends

I'm the backup friend in a friend group.

Teenagers

sometimes it feels like i do know a lot of people but i barely have friends. I'm not sure if it true 

Confusion

Hey, idk if anyone’s gonna see this but I thought I’d vent for a second. Ever since quarantine I’ve became distant with my irl friends. My schedule was to wake up, eat, watch tiktok, eat more, and sleep. Basicly my life was boring as it was. But it all changed when I saw a discord link in the comment section of a random video. This group of people became best friends, My family. I had an actual emotion bond with them. But one text ruined everything (I didn’t say any slurs) All of them were about to split they were saying how the group was suppose to be unproblematic and fun, how they were to old for the drama. I felt guilty that this was about to happen. All because of me? Greatfully they stayed together but they were still really mad. And I don’t blame them. I told them I would take a break but I check back every minute. I feel like they’ve forgot about me, or have another chat without me. I’ve been having lots of break downs and just all together my mental heath hasn’t been so good. I’ve been feeling sad and guilty and I feel like I ruined the only good thing I had in my life. Idk what to do with these feelings except stay quiet and deal with it on my own 😕.

Mental Health

Idk why do I feel like I am distancing from my friends idk why I feel like our bond is breaking idk why am I feeling all this 😕 

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