Today I've learned one thing for sure that nobody was there with you. you have to take courage and earge yourself. thats how life works. no matter how difficult life is I'll be so strong and face everything. but deep down I miss you so much dad and that hurts more that nobody understands that pain🥺. 

It must be so tough going through all of it alone. But there are others who can understand your pain. If not around you...just know there are people like you out there

Depression

I feel  so  sad  my dad lost his friend week ago he was alright  no health issue  nothing  he died  of an heart  attack  !!! I really  feel  worried  about  my dad I can't  even  imagine  loosing  him I love him the most  but every  time  I  hear something  like this I get so worried  ....I am in constant thought  like what if something  happened  to him  everything  would  be  scattered  how will I survive  without  him  .... Idk how to stop this negative  thoughts  I love him and no one can ever love me the way he is loving me and taking  care  of  my family  ...

Anxiety

My grandmother tends to forget everything - she forgets what town she's been in when she travels with my granddad, she forgets her cats' names, things about me, her son's belongings etc. She used to cook but doesn't anymore, either because she don't want to or don't know how, but I can't tell the difference. She only makes fried semi-products. And she even doesn't eat them, she eats very little. 
I can't convince her to go to the doctor or do some brain exercises together. She thinks she's allright but I see she just doesn't admit it and she's aware. 

Family

My grandma passed away today. She left our family a few years back and took an oath to be a monk. She was with their group for the last three years. She was in her 80's and this winter really made her very weak. You know, how as a monk, you need to follow a set of rules. I've been a very emotional state today. She suffered a lot. Even when my grandfather was there, he never treated her right. He had no respect for her whatsoever and that used to really bother me. I just wish she hadn't suffered so much. Would have been less upsetting if she went peacefully. 

After a long shift I've realized there are 2 types of elderly people. The first kind you want to hug and love on and would do anything for. The second kind you want to kick down the stairs. 

Job Dissatisfaction

Please please help me.
Tigger Warning- Cancer, Loss of a loved one.
My best friend's(N) mom, let's name her M, has terminal cancer(to the point where doctors have said no to chemo because it would be of no avail) and neither N nor M know about it. Her father and my mother are the ones that know and I overheard my mum one day so now I am also one of the few people who know.
The point is, the father suggests not telling anyone till Aunty passes but I personally think if N knows, she would spend more of the remaining time she has with her mum and would not feel guilty or sad when she passes as she will be mentally prepared.
N and I have been friends for the past 11 years and even though I know her better than most people, I obviously don't know her better than her own parents. So I get why uncle does not want to tell her but I cannot keep it, if I were in her position I would've wanted her to tell me.
My guilty conscience is killing me from the inside, knowing that my aunt will pass away soon and my friend will not be the same ever again.
What should I do in this case? Should I tell her or just let it be? Any advice would be helpful.

Cancer

I lost my grandmother who was very close to my heart. We shared an extremely affectionate and loving bond. I am currently in the US and because of certain immigration issues I could not travel since last two years. I have a guilt, I did not see her and was not there when she needed me the most.
My grandma, I call her 'Masi Ma' left me on October 8th.??????????
I am unable to overcome the grief and pain that I am having right now. I didn't realize the pain of losing someone you love until I lost Masi Ma. I can't stop thinking about her. She was the purest, most loving and innocent person I have ever known. Please tell me what to do. I love her. 

Relationships

If you have wings where will you fly to ?

Life

We lost a family member today and most heartbreaking part was his 3yr old daughter who literally said : papa aap jldi aanaa thk h I love you....💔💔

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