Today is my birthday. Only two people have wished me. I know it shouldn’t feel weird or it shouldn’t matter to me but I feel awfully sad and lonely. For last couple of months my life has been a mess. And sometimes I feel like I wish I would have died. But don’t worry I don’t want to hurt myself. I wish I would have died of some natural cause or something. It gets so unbearable at times. I am so tired of feeling sad, depressed and lonely.