Today I realized i was lonely.. on the side of that dance floor i stood alone.. felt like the everyone was moving in slow motion.. looking at them have fun i realized i have no one , no one I could connect to, no one i can share my feelings to … everyone went home with someone but i walked alone in the gloomy night

Lonely

I don't even know how I feel. It's just a feeling of numbness, yet sadness mixed in. I'm not happy like I used to be, that's what I get from my two best friends. I thought that being adopted would help me feel better, knowing that I would have a family again, but it didnt. It made me feel worse. I have thoughts of self harm a lot, but I won't tell my parents anything because feel judged by them, especially by my mom. I don't really have anybody else to talk to about it besides my friends, but I already feel like I put too much on their shoulders that I've distanced myself a bit from them..

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What is the one thing that is helping you stay positive in Pandemic? 
Could be your friends, family and many more! 


COVID-19

I grieve too much. I'm not the person I used to be, I feel lifeless. There is a turmoil of emotions inside but I can feel nothing except sorrow. I'm screaming in my head, i feel like dying, i don't know how much I'll control myself. 

Anxiety

Feeling discouraged. 

ADHD

I'm currently in emotional turmoil. I was in relationship for 5 years. I tried to breakup with him but he somehow managed to keep it going. I don't make much efforts because i don't feel that strongly. He loves me but i don't(i think i don't). I refused to marry him but he called my sister explaining everything about our relationship even told his parents but i never said anything to my parents. I'm very close to my sister and i felt really really bad she had to find out this way.

He's still thinking i will marry him and he just can't accept it. I'm scared and confused that if somebody is trying to fight for me so much he might be worth it.

But i don't really like being forced or work on clock for such matters. I have been too lenient and feel bitchy for refusing to marry after 5 years of relationship.

Any advice is welcome. Help please.

Relationships

As i m growing idk m becoming rude and also now idc who's stay who's go. Still when it hurts i m like no bro... Stay calm nd please don't open with nyone

3am Thoughts

Trying to escape the metrix? 
What about the metrix that you can only see but can never escape? 

Start to hate that fact im introvert
When i was a child it was nice cause i was that cute quiet child 
But when I grow up and face the world 
Its so hard 
I can’t make friends im so lonely
Even the people that I thought they love me
They only use me cause I can’t say no to them
Im so awkward to say no to someone
Everyone thinks that i have a weak personality, so they said hurtful things to me and I cannot say stop to them
I failed at my job because I cannot communicate with people, all jobs needed communication skills 
Its hard for me 
Life is pass through my eyes and I can’t change 
I hate being introvert

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