Today i realised something, that for a very long time i feel like i have to remain to be responsible. I cant take any rash decision or make mistakes or lash out at any one. I have to be understanding for everyone even though they did not even try to understand me and whenever i make some kind of mistake, they mock me or make me feel like what the hell have i done. That why i always try to do the right thing, to think everything through but guess what i still make mistakes because i am a fucking human and i can also make mistakes. People never really try to understand where i am coming from but they want me to understand them and their actions. But the truth is no one ever really tried to understand me thats why i always keep explaining myself. Thats not an excuse for the mistakes i made. No matter how much i wanted to do the right thing, i sometimes end by hurting them and i dont realise it also. It just feels so heavy, to think through everything. Its so exhausting having constant conflict between what i wanna do and what is the right thing to do (either for long term or short term) it feels like all the burden falls on me whether its a relationship or family. Thats why i keep trying or sometimes i just push too hard. I need to see where the line is and stop expecting people to understand me because if they want to they will and then i dont have to explain myself this much i can just make sure that i let them know everything and rest is upto them. Easier said than done, right?
Much more strength to youu buddy π₯°β€
Means alottt
Sending virtual hugs!!!
Right back to you
