Today i questioned my quite friend whom i've been friends with for about 8 years since 2nd grade now why he he barely talk. "brother in silent i feel peace and in silent i observe what you and the other people around me are doing. In Observation i learned and as i witnessed people having fun i feel joy and somehow relieved. I just love this feeling so i'll continue living this way" i said "dang bro, you sure did matured in an early age" he just giggle and we talk about other things. He's the person whom i respect the most, for even i'm a worthless person he still chose to stay by my side, when i did something wrong or my opinion is wrong he never once said that i'm an idiot instead he always right me, when i'm broken even though there's a pandemic and he's a tutor of 5 8th grade student he ended the his class early eve though he will be yelled at for his action he still came to my house. There's still alot of good things that he did to me, he helped me alot and i'm relieved that i became friends with such a guy. 

Friends

My partner body-shamed me right in the middle while we were cuddling & making out and I haven't been able to love him the same way I used to, how much ever I try to.  I even talked to him about this and he said apparently he didn't mean it (like seriously???) and anything he says doesn't make sense to me anymore. And I've been feeling really shitty about myself too since that day and I can't stop thinking about it. (Well clearly, look at me writing this @2:30 at night, weeping.)
What should I do? Can someone relate? Is this a red flag?


Body image

So my gf told me that she's having exams so will be busy. And I understand that even gave her all time, didn't forced her for anything. And it's been more than two weeks now since she texted me, I was still waiting. Then yesterday night I checked her online status over Ig app. And I found there were posts,those were posted like 2days ago,5days ago,1 week ago like that. I'm totally disappointed with this,what should I do? She has time for these all but not even asked me how am I doing all the time.. 

Anxiety

I got very close to one of my friend in last 20 days. We have late night calls every day. Talking over a phone we forget about time. But i fear if i catch feelings for him. I dont want to. I font want to be in any kind of relationship. But at the same time i want the other person to treat me as his own. Giving respect, taking care, getting possessive and all that stuff. And i dont want him to get distance ld from myself. Can anybody tell what should i do?? 

***Please excuse any miss spelled words or missing words or if something doesn't make sense or if I sound all over the place I tend to just express and jump all over***Hello everybody. I feel like I'm kind of stuck on making a decision and I of course know only I can make this decision but maybe expressing myself and seeing other thoughts on what I kind have been dealing with and having hearing some feed back from strangers might help. So basically a long story short.  I have been in my current relationship for over 7 maybe 8 years now and I been through it all from being cheated on lied to verbally abused never abused physically thankfully and great full but verbal abuse isn't any better I know. So basically yes I stuck around for my reasons of just being a VERY EXTREMELY KIND understanding individual/Partner because I also seen how my partner was raised and wasn't raised in way of respecting people but overtime things did get better with respecting me but there are times where he does get out of hand and disrespect verbally again because of disagreements and just because I finally stop taking his crap and sticking up for myself. I notice that since I have started doing this sticking up for myself because I get triggered from him getting loud with me or disrespectful with me I started bring myself out of character and become something I am not in the sense of maybe saying things that will trigger him like being sarcastic which I know he doesn't like but I do again in way because of the past of constant disrespect and hurt. I have also being trying to move on and forgive for his past history of what he has done but I feel like I am still stuck because I am trying to heal but can't fully heal because of little things that trigger me from the past like the disrespect of his behavior from when he was either again cheating disrespecting. Should I give myself time to heal separately in living space and stop working on clearly a DAMAGED relationship and see where things go. In the back of my head I know this the answer DUH but why is it that it's just much easier said then done, why does life also make it hard to do this because of the living situation 

Emotional Abuse

No matter how hard I try.. luck has never been on my side. I don't know why this is happening to me . Why always me god? Kuchh to rehem karo.

Anyone up for helping me get sumthin off my chest? Or helping me with advice without judging me? 

Overthinking

Why is it so difficult to move on knowing that he has moved on with someone else . It was still fine before he had another someone in his life , but now knowing that he  really really really like another girl and is making all the efforts for her , this hurts. 

3am Thoughts

Anybody from gujarat ?? 

so wanted to talk with anyone,not feeling good about my life 

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