Today i asked my best friend that what’s my toxic trait? And she said that you are harsh sometimes you can rude . And honestly that hurted so bad . So now whenever she says something i just say yes and try to be quiet. But honestly that hurted so bad

That's okay..work on it ....you only asked for a suggestion...she gave you the response 

I'm struggling with a silent war inside me, where no one know, and I doubt anyone care anyway when they know. I have to act like everything is okay so no one can see how weak and broken I am. What make things worst, I know that I cannot win this silent war, I just clinging to just survive it somehow. I have to accept how miserable I am. I'm tired, tired to be a loser, tired to be myself, tired of this miserable life.

"live a little" said people who have a wonderful life, and I don't even want to continue living. But I don't want to die either. Some part of me refuse to believe that I actually a total failure, even tho I cannot see the otherwise

Depression

Coffee date karne wale logo ko toh bohot baar dekhe/sunne hai.
Aajao hum aapko Gujarat ki jalebi,faafda,gathiya ke date pe leke chale??. 😃

Love

Any idea about app where you can find people interested in trips 

3am Thoughts

Good morning guyz 


Hi my name is Sam. I'm a bit of an introvert.
There's this girl who's my neighbour and on whom I have a crush.
I couldn't say it to her face how much I love her and now I really can't because she doesn't even wanna talk to me because something terrible happened...
One day I decided to tell her that I have a crush on her and the moment I was gonna say that. She said excitedly to me(one of her closest friend) that she made a boyfriend. Although I fake smiled in front of her it pretty much hurt inside. I couldn't bear the fact that she's not with me but someone else.
 After a few months, one day a mutual friend of mine and my neighbour took a selfie with her in an elevator and my crush didn't know that but her breasts were visible in the photo. But her friend knew that . The other that guy came to me and said that he has an amazing picture of her but he will only show it to me if I pay him. I thought that maybe she might be looking beautiful in that picture so I thought why not. But when he showed me the pic I got angry. I said that he needs to delete the picture at that instant. But he didn't and he threatened me instead that he'll go and tell her that I'm the one that's been showing everyone the pic and also I said something vulgar. I had to back off at that time. I couldn't risk losing her as a friend and stop talking because god I loved her so much. But I had to do something about it or else more people will see that pic and I didn't want that.
So I waited for a few days. I heard from a friend of mine that the guy showed the pic to him too. I got angry again. I mean why is he doing that. She trusted him and that's what he doing.
I felt that I had no choice but to tell her myself that what he's been upto lately.
But I got the news that my neighbour broke up with her boyfriend a few weeks back.
So I decided that I should first tell her about how much I'm in love with her.
So when we both met, I was gonna tell her how much she meant to me. But I couldn't . I fell guilty by hiding her from the truth about that pic of hers. So instead I told her truth.
She got angry at me for telling her so late. I apologized for that. What else I could have done. I'm an introvert and I barely talk to people and yet alone this topic was a serious issue.
She called the guy who took the pic and that guy came . She made me stay. When she saw the pic herself she got more angry. But the guy and his friends said that I was the one who snatched his phone and saw the pic and said something vulgar and that I have been showing the pic to everyone myself. But I didn't do anything like that.
Now she doesn't talk to me and no one in my friend circle does. I'm so sad about what happened and being an overthinker I can't take this out of my head. I don't have anyone to talk to about this as they all think I'm a creep who doesn't respect girls

I'm skipping lunch today and dinner too because I feel fat, I feel like I've gained weight and I need to lose weight. I know it is all in my head because I still fit in my clothes, but I've also seen myself in the mirror and I don't look as skinny as am. I know I am going to regret it later...but fuck it :)

Eating Disorder

Wear a bra, brush your teeth, stop washing your hair more than 3 times a week. Don’t fuck musicians. Don’t travel for a crush anywhere. Never fuck without a condom. Never fuck with 2 condoms. If someone is douchey to you, just out douche them. 

Other

I don’t understand why he distant himself towards me. He’s getting attached to me that’s what he said but like how in hell he reacted by distancing? 

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