today I actually woke up in a really good mood its been months since I actually woke up feeling so self motivated to do stuff. when I started my relationship almost 4 years ago I stopped writing because I was in love and I just wanted to give this person all my time and now that we aren't together I'm going back to doing everything I was doing before I met him and it feels so good to be on track again. writing is my passion is something I love and something I never going to stop doing because it helps me in so many ways. 

thank you so much it means a lot , and from now and on I know that no matter what I go first 

Hi, I am so glad you got your writing mojo back💪 Never let it go again for someone else. If you were to prioritise anything in life, YOU and your passion always come first!❤

Happy

feeling bit low key

Overthinking

Feeling very anxious guys. I got some bad reputation amongst some classmates of mine. It’s extremely frustrating. I have made some bad decisions, and now everyone’s decided that it’s good to judge me. I’m worried that I’ll never be able to stand up and face life again. I’m anxious about the fact that I’m unable to enjoy life as before. 

Anxiety

I have been trying really hard to loose weight and I have managed to make some progress too but only the people who have seen the past version of me know I look a but different. I am in a completely new setting with new people and none of them know I am trying to make active efforts to loose weight so I get really mean body shaming remarks from them and I hate it. I have been trying really Hard and I still get shamed for my weight and I hate it. Makes me feel like I will always be known as the fat girl or like really obese. 

3am Thoughts

Good night....all of you

Alcohol

2 year from now.. today on valentine day.. a very hurtful accident happened with me.. i was at college near boys hostel and me and my ex boyfriend's friends were just chilling and laughing.. me and my ex bf was the only couple in that group.. one of his friend commented that.. you both should go in room ( boy's hostel) and have some fun.. why you are here.. and i felt discomfort.. but when i looked at my ex bf.. he was standing there and laughing and said nothing to his friend.. at first i thought he didn't hear it clearly.. but later i found out he heard everything and still didn't said anything..
Sometimes i think i overthink it and create a fight but no i wasn't overthinking.. his friend shouldn't said that.. but now I've broken all contacts with my ex bf and his friends.. but still whenever i remember this accident.. i feel miserable 

I am hopelessly in love with my ex. I have been for two years. I don't know how to move on or stop. Any advice for this? 

My father beat me yesterday, on my birthday. I called the cops, they came and said it was a  f a m i l y  m a t t e r. I ran out to my friend, she paid my cab. I'm home again tonight, I feeling anxious. 

But somehow I'm clear. I KNOW I DO NOT HAVE TO FOLLOW HIS OR MY MOTHERS RULES ANYMORE. When I was on the floor and couldn't breathe SHE told me to stop. I couldn't move.

I know my goals and it's not theirs. I do not need their advice, I'm following my own. Fuck it. It's my dream, my business my education I have paid for myself. I'm going for it my way. It's not theirs. 

Women Safety


My birthday was few days ago too..I turned 18..but my parents didn't do anything..they didn't even wish me at 12 am they all had slept and forgotten..they wished me in morning that too when I came back from school..when they saw my friends status..just normal food was made instead of anything special..it wasn't celebrated.. instead my family fought with me like half of the day..and then they didn't do anything at night too I called my bestie and cried and then she forcefully took me to a cafe nearby  to make me a little happy and did whatever she could but still spent more than my parents did in entire day
But Today it's my brother's birthday..he's just 2 yrs younger
He got a surprise at 12 am
He got 16 gifts because he turned 16 
Mom made all his favorite food in afternoon they also went to orphanage and all didn't take me along because I " don't need to waste time and study" they called all his friends now to celebrate and going in a very expensive restaurant..they are so happy for him..and on my birthday they fought because I was just talking to my friend as she called to wish me and I wasn't studying
Just because I am girl and he's a boy this all happened..I hate this life..why me
Some people will be like he's younger but man he's just 2 yr younger and I legit turned 18 but I got nothing..
Yes..I am jealous because I never get cakes..16 gifts for 16th birthday..whyyy? 
And today in morning when I asked my parents that why did I didn't get it.. everyone likes getting surprises and cakes and celebrating..they just told don't speak back and don't try to spoil my son's birthday or you won't be allowed to come out of your room for rest of the day..get itt? Now shut up and study 😭😞
Just because I am GIRL??
Why me? 
I don't know whether to fight or be silent

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