Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

To the man who broke my heart:
Really not good in expressing my feeling hehe not even good in grammar it fluently.
but this time pains give me the courage to share this.
My man, How are you ?
Its been 19 years since I’ve never saw you and even just a glance: I don’t have the chance. I miss you.
I always ask myself, am I worthy? 
Am I not enough?
to bring this pain with when I grow old?
Do i have the chance to meet you?
It kills me seeing my friends with their family. Insecurities always eats me.