 To keep up with life one needs a constant motivation.I believe We seek it in form of love... depend on wrong ppl get hurt and add one more sorrow to our life.
I am trying to practice the following things to bring happiness in my life on my own
1. Keep smiling,
The sorrow,stress,sadness will fade a bit if you wake up in the morning and smile,the muscles send single to brain that everything is fine,Fake it till you make it.
2.Have mercy on yourself
Stop sleeping blaming and gloating.A merciful attitude would keep you at peace with oneself and with others.
3.
Self love,
Prioritize yourself for a day,on every single action Or thought prioritize yourself.

I am going to follow this now on  let's see what difference it brings,Have a great day.

Everything is good but no connection with soul

Thier will always be ups and downs in life, sometimes it feels like the downs are more, but what i learnt from experience is that you happiness is your ow responsibility, if u keep depending on other people or other things for happiness it wont last, rather bring that happiness from within, expect less from others, do what makes you happy, dont over think things, just go with the flow......you are your own sunshine.....good luck

aprajita 

Happy

LETTERS I COULDN`T SEND TO THEM (PART1 )                                                               I dont know how but i love you and i hate you ,i need you and i`m better offf without you ,i miss you and i`m moving on ,i don`t know how to explain how all these thoughts are going on in my mind at the same time ,i don`t know if i want you back or not ,i don`t know what i`m missing ,i know it`s you but i don`t know if it`s your memories or you as a person ,it came as a shock to me when you left and i think i`m still in the denail stage cause from the very beggining you said you were never going anywhere ,you promised to stay forever and i believed you forgotting of the possibility  that they could be just empty words said by another new person to me .
I know you regret everything you did to me the last time we met and i could sense the guilt from your eyes while you could see the betrayal i felt from you through mine .I dont know if we`re good for each other or not but someone`s gotta know the answer right ? and since it was not me ,that means it must have been you and you left which means we weren`t good for each other ,then why do i think that maybe we could have been the gateaway to each others problems ,why did it hurt so much on saying goodbye that day ,why did we hug so tight that day like we were giving each other strenght for the oncoming vicious  days  ,why did it feel like we didn`t want each other to part ,like if it was in our hands we would run away ,from everything and everywhere in that one instant and just have each other ,and we both know we`ld be okay with just that ,with each other 
You`re that precious treasure those wise people advice to keep in your life for as long as possible hidden from the outside world cause you only find such people once and maybe i`m a fool to not have listened ,i was afraid to lose you ,i was insecure that you`ld find someone better and leave me ,i wanted to tell you how much you meant ,it only mattered to me what you thought of me ,i was jealous when you`ld name someone else a lot cause i thought soon i`ld be replaced by them ,i was scared that they would mean more to you than i mean to you , i was terefied of ever losing you cause you made me believe in myself and when you left i thought that maybe i really was nothing ,why did you had to make me the center of your life only to snatch that away from me and make me feel absolutely worthless and useless but still i wish sometimes that maybe it was more of the right person and wrong timing thing and someday we`ll meet again wwith the right timing and be the right people for each other 

I wish i could have told you all this the day we met for the last time ,i wish that we`ld meet again and i tell you this one day but till then i think i`ll just keep writing to remmember it for when the day comes 



Teenagers

I live with my in-laws and husband. My in-laws are good people but since they are from completely different backgrounds financially our thinking does not match. I really get irritated by their behaviour and can't behave normally. But my husband is completely a mums boy and I can never talk to him about these issues as he never wants to listen to anything against his family. This results in distance between us and a feeling of depression for me..

Family

Panic attacks are terrorizing. 

Mental Health

Why can't for once someone think about my feelings. Like actually think about my feelings without yours having to come first. Always about you until I explode a little then you care but out of pity. Forget everyone. Why do I care so much. Why do I care about others feelings. Why can't I treat people bad. I'm so passive, I'm a freaking weak punk. UGHHHH, I wanna scream.

Frustration

I am done..

I changed my username while trying to mess up with someone. Now I can't change it back. Looks like i have to make another account 🥲🥲

Affirmations

He can't even look at my eyes for more than one minute, is he just shy, or in love? Lol

Since I am someone who will be labelled "PRiVILEGED". Does that make my problems smaller than anyone less previleged?

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