To have a family is a privilege,to not have one is disadvantage,to consider a dauther in law a daughter is privileged,to not so is disadvantage✌️

Family

I'm so fool

Mental Health

I wanna know Your Views on This. 

Money or Happiness ? 

Does this materialistic World Gives Us Happiness What Is Important. 

For Survival We Need Money But HAPPINESS is Also Important. 

Your Views 🙃

Life

yesterday i had this thing like i felt my heart broke or idk that weird feeling cause me and my ex broke up few weeks ago and i started thinking abt him and i go check too see if he posted sum or wtv and it was that he unfollowed lol but that was so random


3am Thoughts

He wants to get physical. I am only with him only because i love him so much. I literally am obsessed with him. He makes me happy. He has been two timing since a month. He said he will make it permanent after getting physical. The other girl, he has been with her for nine months already. But he confessed to me about two months ago and he told me that they broke up. I agreed at that time. But i soon came to know that he had never broke up with the other girl and i blocked him everywhere . But i added him soon on the condition that we will stay friends. But he had a fight with the other girl cause of me. She knew that he had cheated on her but still forgive him. But when he added me again, she was furious and blocked me from his accounts. And after that he added me on whatsapp. She came to know about this and she broke off with him. And we got back together again. And i thought he had definately moved on and forgot about that other girl. But two days back, i came to know that they never broke up and they still texted till 11 pm. I was so hurt. And when i confronted him about it, we had a lot of arguments and he denied being with her. That is obviously false. Otherwise why would she still have his account password?? And we blocked each other. Yesterday he called me and said that he missed me. He remembered our talks and that he was in pain. He wanted to get back together and that he wants to get physical. He said that he will definitely make it permanent after that. He said that he was never with the other girl. Like a stupid fool, I believed him and told him that i might think about it and give you a response soon. 
But after two hours, the other girl messaged me and asked why had he called me in a furious tone..... I couldn't believe it. She deleted me from his account. What the hell am i even doing and what's happening?? What should i do next?
Only brutal truths please😖😢
I know im being stupid but love is making me blind to the obvious facts😫

Frustration

The darkness is getting darker.

I have a math exam in two days and I feel like I don´t know anything, I feel dumb and sad. I´ve struggled with math my whole life and it´s really frustrating because I feel like it is consuming me because I try so hard to be better at it. It always feels like I´m getting better but then I don´t do it correctly and I end up failing. I think i´m understanding but then they teach me new content and then when we go back to the first content i´ve forgotten all of it. And I try to study but I end up feeling worse. I do all my homeworks, study and pay atention to the class but when i dont understand, i crumble.

School

I feel okay today, not so negative not so positive just neutral 

Happy

Numb-ed
It has come back. 
Relapsed, recall. 
How did it happened?
Why is it happening again? 
It makes me lost. 
Have no control.
It makes no sense. 
Mentally exhausted. 
This is crazy. 
Unconsciously brought it back.
Excuses.
Perhaps it was me, it is me. 
From the beginning. 
To the end. 
It kills me. 
But I will do it.
It destroys me.
I will keep doing it. 
Why? 
I hated it. 
But I fell for it.
It took over me. 
No resistance.
Ripping part by part. 
Will it end?
I hope so. 



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