To forget my crush and move on I have started drinking or smoking every night
I really like her but we both are completely different so I can’t confess 

Depression

my boyfriend gets mad or irritated easily. sometimes I don't know what to do because every step might upset him. it's like I'm walking on eggshells everyday. :( I'm trying to understand him but sometimes it's just too much. can you guys give me advice? 

3am Thoughts

I feel like I am the stupidest person in the whole world, i probably am but just to feel good I am trying to convince myself that I am not. I have zero self esteem and I am loosing self respect day by day, don't know how long I can hold on to that, I am just a mildly devastating event away from giving up, what's even the point of my existence, I am not doing any good to anyone, except for my parents I don't think anyone care if I live or not(even I don't care if I live or die) the reason I am still here are my parents, but I feel like I might gonna disappoint them someday and when I do I don't think I can handle that anymore. I don't even know why am I writing all that here I don't need help I just wanted to say it out loud to someone and I have nobody I can talk to, I tried talking to my parents once and they don't understand me at all.


Other

Guys any side hustle ideas you got that can be done while graduating?

Work

I am in need of letting some emotions out, not because i’m looking for sympathy but because I need to stop bottling everything in. I have had more trauma in my life than I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. From things that happened to me as a child to things that happened to me in my teen years, I have never been able to let any of it go. It all effects my relationships now. I deeply struggling with letting people into my life and forming a good connection with them. From what I have experienced in the past all people ever do to me is get close to me and then betray, use, abuse, or try to make my life a living hell. i believe no one has good intentions towards me so why would i trust anyone in the first place. But with this mindset comes some downsides. I feel so alone. Like no one will ever understand me. I am so worried that I am going to be like this the rest of my life. I don’t know how to get over this trauma of trusting people and letting them into my life and I so deploy want to fix it before I lose my mind. 

What kept u awake at night????

2 years back my ex left me for his ex (it was like a 1.5 year relationship )idk if he was cheating the whole time .I always thought to myself that what did i do to even deserve this . He gave me nothing but anxiety depression and panic attacks I’m in a good state now i have moved on and also moved to another country. But i just don’t know i felt the worst in this years and he was the happiest and even married now living his happy life why after all the things he did to me.why does karma not f him up?


Anxiety

well, it's my first time here. and I actually was searching through the web on how can I talk to someone about what's going on with me because yes I have people surrounding me but they're really not there... I'm currently having trouble with my mom because of how feminist she is and other problems and I just want to move out so bad. My dad died 5 years ago and so who I call my mom is actually my grandmother because my biological mom left me and my siblings when we were small. So home is literally hell hearing over and over again the pain they go through because of my dad's death and I have to try to ignore it because I can't show anybody how broken I am. I'm just tired of my toxic household and the pain they have been putting me in physically and mentally throughout the years. I'm just tired. They're always telling me that I don't work for anything they always remind me how ugly I am, and their only response to problems is violence and anger. I work and have school and do not understand how stress I am. I just want to leave. They don't know a lot about me on how I almost got raped when I was 5, or how I had suicidal thoughts when I was 11 -13, they never really said "I love you" or hugged me for love if it wasn't a congratulations hug. All the achievements I've made were to make them proud but that's not enough for them, they just want more and more from me. I'm just done with everything.

Feminism

I feel in love with someone more than 4 years but he don't have idea about it today he called me and invited me his engagement party then I just simply replied him congrats am so happy for you he said tq and said find someone for you also can I help you, I replied him stop teasing me then he Caught the call, I wish I said him before how I feel for him , she is so lucky man she got gem 💎

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