To forget my crush and move on I have started drinking or smoking every night
I really like her but we both are completely different so I can’t confess 

Depression

Why do aunties keep body shaming me? Like literally, you're not perfect yourself! And why is looking at teenage girls up and down and then commenting on their bodies mandatory?!! Like stfu can we please focus on REAL things. Work on yourself first then tell me that I'm imperfect. God, I hate humans. Everyone should go fuck themselves. 

Body image

I am so done with my life. I have no one to talk too, I am just on my phone waiting for someone to text me or call me, I just surf on Instagram Facebook and Twitter and now I am tired of that, I am sad the whole day, can’t even go out for a drive alone, bored of watching Netflix, My only source of entertainment is going through memes on Instagram Facebook and now I am so bored that I can see the repeated ones, I don’t know what to do I am so done. I sometimes question myself that why do I even exist? 
I am just sad because I don’t have anyone to talk too, even I want friends, what kind of sin I have done!

Other

Second chances are made to make things better, to make love sweeter and to correct mistakes.

Love

Everything is easy..
If you are crazy...
Nothing will be easy....
If you are lazy....

3am Thoughts

Hate my own life 
Many thoughts randomly hits me so hard that I can't even breath

Stress

How to focus on studies after having a huge gap of about 6 months? 

Exhausted

20 years old and already going to be 21 and all I have experienced since 2015 most of the time sadness,uncertainty about my future,no idea what next,no routine,no structure. If I look back it feels like when was I fully happy with my life and myself. ?Just a whole lot if problems and mistakes is what I feel I am.
Lots to say.

Even I want to love my life seriously life in me, live it, I have only one in my hand.
Will I be able to be fully happy ever ? Will I be able to live fully, experience my youth ever before my hair turns grey ?and when I'll be old will I only be like couldn't do all those can't help I had problems that time when I look back?
Is it only going to be this problems now and resentments, regrets and helplessness later? 
If all the universe or God or whatever that power is , wanted me to have is all this then why this life ?why the potential I feel inside but can't hone can't use even  a bit properly?
All it finally comes is to life is what you make it 😔. But seriously what about all these questions I just have one life even my eyes long to go to beautiful places, even my heart longs for  good experiences with my friends and family and longs to be able to bring happiness to my parents and sister and grandparents .will I ever be able to do that or just be the inevitable parasite?
It's like I give them stockholm syndrome , can't leave me aren't happily with me but they are great they yet love me they say. My heart longs to fulfill their dreams, my dreams  , see them happy about me..
But I don't know if it's possible.
😔

Let's all get along. Enough with discrimination I say. Black or white, asian or spanish. We are all people, don't we all deserve to live? I say all lives matter.

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