To all Now&me users....Here is a question....You are assigned with a task. Now will you feel bad if I tell you that it is your responsibility to do the task ?

If I am assigned with a task, then ofcourse it'll be my responsibility to do the task. So, I don't think I'll feel bad about it.

Relationships

Hello folks!

No matter what circumstances you go through, try to greet people with a smile. Makes a wonder, always! ✨♥️

Keep shining!! 🌟

Gratitude

can Anyone suggest something new to do, apart from regular life and stuff.

Life

Helloo logoooo!!
kaise ho yaarr sab??
Mujhe kal assignment dena h yar par karne ka mann nahi kar raha...
Kch batao ki kya karun?

Anxiety

Life is like travelling in a train. You board at some station, when there are others already on the train. We go through a beautiful journey called 'life'. We end this journey 'life', when our destination comes, when our time comes. We have fellow passengers as well travelling with us, who will get down at their destined station, maybe before us, maybe after us. The driver of this train is someone unknown, who we cannot see, just feel the driving, known by the name 'God'. There are people travelling in another train as well, who we don't know, but they are also bound to get down at some station. We sometimes need to wait for others to pass, sometimes others wait for us to come. Sometimes we experience fast - moving happiness, sometimes slow-moving hardships. There's nothing called as success and failure. Just a beautiful journey, bound to end one day, leaving behind the talks we do as mark of our existence. We are replaced by new passengers enter train who then experience journey of life💗😌

3am Thoughts


Just saying your name makes me realize how much meaning you add to my life. I watch your actions every day and long to hold and kiss you when I’m awake, but reality dawns a rainy day, a world of fantasy and dismay. In my dreams I make you mine. I hold you till the end of time, but when I awake to find that you’re not there,  my world is full of sorrow and despair, destroys my hope, my everything.


I hope you realize that this is for you @coleisneat.
Though I hate you, I can't stop remembering our memories, the good and the bad.


I went to the mall with three of my friends today. We're all at uni and from the same country. And they're all in perfect relationship, while I am single. Sometimes I talk about how lonely I feel especially when they start talking about their boyfriends and sometimes I remain quiet and let them have their moment. I'm not jealous but I do feel extremely lonely and like the odd one out. I've set my expectations of what I want in a guy. And I honestly don't think it's that high. Just that he is tall, has a bit of weight on him and Catholic. That's it. But I've been told by them that my expectations is too high. And every time I try to explain my reasoning I'm cut off or my opinion is not heard. They joke about how I keep on saying no to every guy they recommend. And I'm not naive I know no ones perfect and of course I do not know any of the people they point out, so all I have is to judge them based off of their physical appearance. For me if I meet someone and we click, then that's perfect I dont care whether he is short,  tall skinny , handsome ect.. I'm not that kind of person who puts all their their attention on physical appearance. But when you're shown only pictures of people what else do you have to judge them on? 

Today they joked that my expectations were extremely unrealistic and again I tried to explain but was cut off numerous times so that a jokes were made about my unrealistic expectations and how I will never find someone like that. The jokes went too far today and felt as if I wasn't worth the expectations I've set, as if no guy like that will fall for a girl like me.  I know my worth and I want somebody who is worthy of me like I am worthy of them . But they belittle me again and again as if I am not worth the effort and expectations. I told them I don't think my expectations was that high and that it was only the basic. Again they laughed and joked. 

One of my friend, her boyfriend calls her every night to check up on her without missing one phone call since we started attending uni. The other one of my friend has a kid and the boyfriend who is not the father took in the child as his own and told her that if they ever break up he will wait  for her to come back after uni and marry her. And my third friend her boyfriend is organising a surprise for her for valentines day while he is on the opposite side of the globe. 

Why are they worthy of love like that and I am not?

Why am I told my expectations are too high when they've found their dream guy?

Don't I deserve that kind of love too?

Growing up I've been told that I am ugly, and I've been the second choice. I've tried to get past it but every time they joke about my expectations it makes me remember the times I've been rejected and called ugly. I know that i am not ugly and been told so and also know that beauty is subjective. 

I just feel extremely hurt that my own friends do not think that i am worth the effort and the expectations.

They saw that I was upset and still continue to make fun "oh now she's upset that we've told her her expectations is too high"

I love my friends and I know they care about me despite how everything sounds.


But it still hurts knowing thaty don't think I'm worth it


 









































































Boyfriend


did a mistake… i loved someone and gave my heart at a young age around 15
I didn’t know that it could be an infactuation
He is my relative 9years elder to me
I know him since my childhood yet I fell in love in my teenage… And I proposed him when I was 16 ( don’t judge me plz I wasn’t that matured enough to think before doing something) his answer wasn’t clear it was neither a yes nor a no
He said he would like to marry someone whom his mother suggests and said he don’t want to take a desicion but he said he liked me but not love and he also asked to wait
He was like let’s hope for the best but don’t expect I didn’t felt that It was a rejection
And continued to love half year passed he was close enough used to text everyday
I went bad on my studies then later I got to know he is committed to girl since he was a teen when I directly asked him about it he said that relation was broken which was like they were still actually in a relation but I blindly trusted him that he wasn’t mingled
I felt sorry when I came to know that his first love left him ( I didn’t know the truth then)
Even when I proposed him he was in a relation but still asked me to wait and this was the reason I got angry for few hours later I realised that ppl do commit mistakes in love so I didn’t give a shit abt it and I promised that I would stay with him
He was a bit shocked as I agreed him
We continued to be the same and he started feeling comfortable with me
After 3 months again I got to know that he was still in that relation
And I decided not to love him anymore
I dont say he is wrong. He wanted to save the relation with both of us ( his love and me)
But I felt that it can be betray for both of us and decided to forget abt it which it took a long period of time
I started to concentrate on my studies again they were boards but still I used to stalk him in social media
At that time I saw him posting breakup quotes /love failure quotes and was tensed unknowingly I made an attempt to know abt it and called him
He said me everything abt his love
He was sad as he loved her for abt 8 years and finally she left him
I didn’t feel like questioning anything abt his lies to me as he was already drowned in sadness and I helped him to cope up with that untill he became normal and that communication continued till date and am 18 now
Even when you ask him now he will say he doesn’t love me but still shows lots of concern which my frnds say its fake I don’t know his feelings, he says he gives me priority, he says that he is not interested for marriage but will say he is ready to marry every thing seems so confusing
Out of love I say he is good one
Out of hatered my frnds says he is a liar
He is open minded and started sexting …even I was okay with it as I loved him to the hell infact I was happy that he was interested to be open with me . But at some point I felt it was wrong because he didn’t love me
Sexting with partner Is okay but not with some one whom you don’t love
It’s lust and I don’t want it
But at weaktimes I myself forget my decision and go blind in love
People say he is using me but I don’t feel it…his concern, his gratitude in words don’t make me feel that way
Sometimes I feel that he doesn’t value me
Sometimes I feel he shows intrst in me
Sometimes he says he won’t put an effort for making my love successful
Sometimes he says I want me in his life
Sometimes he says enjoy present
Sometimes he says I am okay without you
He said " I am ready to marry you if mom accepts you and whole family is okay with it but I won’t at all put my head during the process you convince them everything must be your effort" .As he is relative and 9 years elder to me there are less chances for marriage and started to mentally prepare for it but physically he is becoming close
I don’t know what to do
Is it yes or no?
I am gng in a wrong path?
Will I be happy with that mentality?
Is his affection right one or fake?
Is he using me?
Am I gng blind ?
Shall I follow my frnds advice as they know me and my mentality very well?
Should I try to unlove him?

Insecurity

First trip to panvel by Mumbai local train...
1. Why there are no fast trains...?
2. I likes few stations especially after VASHI.


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