To all my people with control issues surrounding the people they care about, you have to understand that not only are you putting yourself in position of angst and anxiety, you are also projecting it on the people you love. The very act of keeping people close will backfire into making them uncomfortable and drive them away. I swear by this one saying, 
If you love them , let them go. People thrive when they are given space for growth.

They need to let people go for their happiness. Controlling behaviour has never helped any reltionship.

Mental Health

can't belive i'm crying over math. lol.

School

Why this happens - 
Papa aur unke bhai ek hi ghar mein rehte hue baat nahi karte 
Par mummy aur unki bahene phone aur video call par bhi baate kar rahe hai .. .

Family

I feel so sad today. It feels like I’ve people but still feels like I’ve no one and most of them have betrayed me & the ones who haven’t aren’t nice. 

Why people are getting attracted to new. Where old one becomes bored. I left all my friends to talk with her. Now she not even thinking about me.
I am alone now 😑

Exhausted

I don’t know where to start but i feel a little betrayed bc my friend and a guy a dated became so close to each other, this guy after the break we were still close but at some point he started to push me away and stopped talking to me at school and leaving me on delivered for hours while he was active then we stopped talking but i just felt something wasn’t right so i went to apologize but still wasn’t enough so next day i told him if he was talking to someone new and he said no but he was smiling and laughing and i said like i’m being serious and he said why u wanna know and he said no as him knowing i still have feelings for him but there were rumor that came to me and i stopped talking him until one day my friend was there with him so i got say hi but not him then he was like i’m leaving then my friend was like when y’all gonna talk and i was like i don’t know she called him over and we talked but i was expressing how i felt on everything but she was defending him all the time that i gave up 
, anyways so that one friend i started to notice things from them both they are super close and if i got there to say hi or my other friend they stop talking what they were talking and say to eachother like she is coming that it makes it awkward, and i started thinking he takes her to class and wait for her mornings, like in the morning he is mad but when she comes he is happy and after school me and her need to stay for a while until we get pickup so since i was the last one to get pick up he used to stay but he stopped doing that when he started being distant then when she leaves he leaves, there so much more is just my head doesn’t seem right 

Friends

I'm always there for people when they need me then how come nobody is there when I need them?

Lonely

What should I do? Should I cry for what happened today or should I cry for that it happened before my loving family. Unhe kaisa feel hua hoga mujhe aisi situation face krte huye dekhne me.. I feel devasted. Unke samne mai kamzor nhi dikhna chahti thi, I was shivering. God. Don't know what to say now. Sab kuch hone do but please meri family k samne mujhe mat rulao.  I don't want them to feel bad for me. Unki nazro me itni khushfehmi to rehne do ki mai khush hu. Jo kar rhi hu jaise kar rhi hu lekin khush hu. Unke samne mujhe weak mat bnne do. Tootne Mt do. Please.

I want to be alone… with someone, with u… far away from everyone, everything… without worrying about anyone and everything. I want to be liberate-ly isolated. 

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