Time when u release that ur whole lyf was a lie to yourself that ur were a winner, smart than any one that u know anything blaming others for your mistakes believeing that they made mistakes not me and at one point fate or lyf shows you that u r a failure in everything ur not good for no one u r a bad presence self loving asshole u r not that person that who u know believes my lies u r not good for family that u alwas made them cry, not good for girlfriend always made her sad unworthy make a world of lie blaming her for her mistakes not mine make her bad person in society, not good for friends who always make the uncomfortable always make them unusefull trying to motivate them I instead do dumb them make them quite as me
The wholefuckin point is
WHY?
I lied to every one . To protect my self🙄
No. No…
I do them because I don’t want feel unworthy. I tried to fit in their world. My parents world, my girlfriend s world , my friend s world with outknowing what they want .
WHAT THEY REALLY WANT FROM ME??
WHY I MAKES LIE ABOUT ME??
WHY I BROKE EVERYONE’S HEART???
WHY I BROKE EVERYONE’S TRUST???
I know now no one has trust on me. The way I looked things was wrong.
MY FAMILY 👪
Starting first my fam is a good reason for my character. My father I had get character of him. He has ego problems with mother he always angry to mother. He never liked her norither her. They don’t love each other trust each other care each other
Do you know why???
Because of fuckin culture
Did you know who affect this
CHILDRENS LIKE ME
yes problem that I being like this is my family…
I tried so hard to stop my dad’s alcoholic addition. I can’t I failed
I tried to make love between them giving spaces, respecting them. But that wasn’t enough.
After that I understand that love can’t be create from 2 persons who doesn’t know each other I failed
Then I tried to make my friendships better. I tried so hard being with them time when. They needed keeps secrets protecting them and the main thing I listen to them. Yes I was a good listener. But you know the sad reality was every friendship I got was fake. Some time I seems series movies wish I could have friends like them who suppt each other love care keep secretsevety thing but for godsake I don’t get that. The point is someone want to listen to me
WAIT… WAIT…
if some one ready to listen what r u going to say if they get or feels what u feeling neverrrrrrr…
Ur sad is ur own ur happiness is ur own every thing u get it’s only feels u. Let’s hope some one come and say “hey I also go through same stuff”
Never… 😂😂😂😂
Nothing is changing until u get what you are
YS I GET IT. I AM A FAILURE UNWORTHY ETC…
But u know some part of my bad idiot fuckin mind always thing that I am with it.
My lyf is a sad story that I don’t want to…
I want some one I can talk some one I can trust someone I can love some I can be myself someone who knows me with every part and I want more than perfect to that person.
Shit…
Why I am like this I always make people lyf miserable sad etc…
No one is ready for me
WHAT TO DO??? NEXT.
you have briefed about your bad days but what about good days have you forgot?
You are not miserable may be you want people to be happy around you. may be that’s y you lied.
Life gives us chance So why can’t you take new chance and live the way you want to live as you like
we are in the correct track right?
It’s so sad that you’re having such a hard time today. Fortunately, even though the pain you’re suffering today feels unique to you, it actually isn’t-
“What has been is what will be,
And what has been done will be done again;
There is nothing new under the sun.” -Ecclesiastes 1:9
This means that if others in similar or even worse conditions found the help they needed to take control of their lives so can you. Question is, what are you willing to give up to become the very best version of yourself?
