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This room Iโ€™m in
stale walls, torn wallpaper
your phone rings
you donโ€™t answer, you just leave
my cheek still feels his fist
my eyes remember your face
but all I hear is your whispers
and they grin

My rant turned into a poem of sorts.
I work with special needs as a teacherโ€™s aide, and I just need a break. Iโ€™ve already been hit one too many times and I feel pressured to act a certain way around my coworkers in my department just to fit in. I hate that Iโ€™m the newest and youngest in my department, and because of that I feel like I canโ€™t speak out. I feel like all that I do isnโ€™t enough. And I hate that I constantly feel like my coworkers, including the head of my department, are gossiping about me. They always talk about others when Iโ€™m around, and talk about each other when the other isnโ€™t around, so why wouldnโ€™t they talk about me, too? There isnโ€™t really any support from the higher-ups either.

I hate that I canโ€™t just clock-in and clock-out without all the drama, itโ€™s so stupid and immature. And Iโ€™m the young one. Our classroom is already stressful enough with students that have different needs and behaviors and trying to accommodate them to the best of our abilities, but they [coworkers] have to go and create a hostile work environment.

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