this place is being so nice, so i am here, I want to vent out this thing, i am tired of hiding it now!
so approx. 4-5 months ago i got a msg in my instagram DM! i usually don’t reply but it was related to writing as i am a writer too i replied, he was so nice in nature, so kind and sincere, so then we talk, it was normal conversation and we came to know that we are in same degree (from different colleges obviously) and that’s how our first conversation was, then we didn’t talked at all, and then about 1 month ago he messaged me again! we talked very nicely, he was an introvert but too polite and talked about many things related to us! idk why i felt a different connection with him, like i already know him from so many years, it seemed like it was our reunion idk it was so special, it remain same for 2 days! then one night we were talking he asked for my number in very indirect way, i could have ignored it but i gave him my number (which i don’t usually do) then next night my parents were not at home and we were chatting and i came to know he is already in a relationship, that broke me a bit but like till then i was flirting him back but at that moment i stopped myself, he said don’t restrict yourself" i said “i don’t have limits, this can create problem” he said “it will not, there is only you and me here, will not talk about any one else, this is our small world” i agreed to him. then he asked for call, because i was home alone i agreed and we talked for like 2 hrs on call, heat of moment took us to the hight, but that vary moment made him uncomfortable and he said will talk later and left, idk that night i was so happy, next day i realized this is not good and msged him everything that whatever we are doing is not good and we are breaking someone indirectly, he didn’t replied to my texts and calls for 6 hrs. i blocked him from everywhere! after 15 days i unblocked him, he msged something and deleted i asked him what se said nothing and talked nicely that night (i was not angry at all) i was attached idk why and at the extend that i just can’t resist him! that night he asked for some good pictures of me smiling, i send, next 2 days went good after that i just couldn’t stop thinking about him so i msged him to talked about it and he just ignored the topic and was replying very rudely! i said him that “see i couldn’t do my assignments. i couldn’t attend classes, my scores are going down, please listen to me once”, but he replied very rudely that “how can you blame me, if you are not working its your fault, you are a filthy person, just go please, i don’t want to listen anything, just go” i left without saying a single word! i don’t hate him and he still gives me goosebumps when i look at his picture, idk what i am doing this, what should i do now, please give me some direction please :)
Jatin Khurana @jatinkhuran...
We find so many people in our lives who help us grow in different ways. I am sure he must have given your some amazing memories. Cherish them and move forward with your life. Only easy to say, not easy to implement. But i am sure it will be all perfect one day. And i am 100% sure. God bless.
Thank you for your kind words! i too hope that i get through this soon :)
Jatin Khurana @jatinkhuran...
And you’re not a filthy person. You’re gem of a peron! 🥂
haha i will one day :)
I think he was having some problems w his gf/bf during the times he was sweet to you and maybe wanted an distraction from them as well, so he might have found solace in talking to you and once everything went back to normal, he’s rude w you again.
As far as i can conclude, this is on him, and nonetheless I don’t think you deserve somebody who’s behaviour is volatile and so unpredictable. Best for you is to try to de attach yourself from him till the point it doesn’t bother you. Hope you feel great :)
haha! maybe yeah but i am sick of being an option, i too hope i get through this soon, i want to hate, but i can’t!
anyways thank you :)
hope you have good day
You will get through this and shine brighter. Time does heal things, trust me on this one.
Good luck <3
i do trust these words. thank you :)