Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

This past week I’ve felt very depressed. Awhile ago my parents found out about me being bi(they didn’t believe me but hoped I’d be with a boy still even though I have a girlfriend) there have been many things said to me about my gf or me being part of the LGBTQ, nothing good. I’ve also come to the conclusion I’m gay but I feel like a part in that could be from past experiences…For years I’ve tried asking my mother to get my hair cut short cause I truly hate it. I did at the beginning of the week without them knowing, decided that following morning I’d also officially come out as gay. But doing that threw my mother into a absolute fit saying I’m lying about being gay cause she’s seen my friends with even shorter haircuts and assumes I just want to fit in…they are trans. I never told them that bcz they are homophobic and I wanted to continue hanging out with them. She’s also said I’m only into girls because I don’t feel pretty enough to get a guy. But anyway, because of this she said no more dating. My gf doesn’t know yet and I don’t know how to feel. Trying to remind myself I have 1 yr left in this house but idk…Idk how to cope with all this and have had zero energy to do anything.