This is just a reminder that you are loved and I love you too, be strong and don't give up...even if you can't take it anymore don't give up okay...promise me that whatever happens in the future you will keep going.
💞

Love

It’s always something, to know you’ve done the most you could. But, don’t leave off hoping, or it’s of no use doing anything. Hope, hope to the last.
– Charles Dickens

Good Night Peeps🌃

Self Love

Is it okay that you don’t remember everything that you were told to do, that you have to write down so that you dont miss out any point

Frustration

Day by day I am loosing hope in myself 
I am a failure 

Career

"From tomorrow I'm finally taking that step to correct my past mistake, of negligence of my own self and giving my all to you love time energy...where I was supposed to chase my dreams and work on myself I chased you and dig my own grave not ur fault, completely my mistake but let bygones be bygones lord is kind enough to give me another chance I hope I prove to be worthy of it and not dwell on u and look nowhere but forward....like always I have this intense intense need to reach out to you...to tell you the updates to hear "dear, don't worry I'm there na" my heart bleeds to just hear that I'm soo damn uncomfortable but NO! I'm not gonna reach out to u NO! I'm not gonna go back to the place which has brought this upon me....if I'm getting another chance at life I shud not disappoint life by going back to what broke me and honestly no matter how much resisting I have to do It has got a lil bit easier I've started to associate u as my past now...u are starting to feel just like a story to me now once upon a time....till what didn't killed her made her stronger! Seems like I have closed your chapter and want to start a new one....will take time isn't that easy never was still I fear I shudnt trip back to the old chapter but gotta keep moving fwd with the fear beside me. Never letting my faith die🙂"
 
Something which I wanna send my ex but hell no, I'm not gonna send so venting out here! Thank you for reading.

Breakup

I am tired of pretending I don't care, I don't miss you, I don't love you. Idk how to say it because I f'ed up pretty bad(mostly). Idk what is going on in your life, idk whether you are seeing someone or not. I was absurd. Please text me once, I am scared of you. I cannot but if you show some care for once I swear to tell you everything what is in my heart. I miss you.

3am Thoughts

“it’s always been you” 
“i couldn’t bring myself to hurt you because you are literally everything to me. hurting you would hurt me” 
“if it’s not me and you, it’s you with someone else and the thought of that drives me insane” 
“you don’t realize the place you take in my life. it’s crazy in the best way” 
“we’re endgame” 
“i’ll be back for you, i pinky promise” 

all things you said to me, remember? just lies and i hate myself for believing you. do you remember how we never once broke a pinky promise to each other? we made that pact when we were 15 and maybe it’s childish but it was the one thing we never did even now that we are 20, and you broke it. you left me, told me to wait, so i did, you told me to not find anyone else, so i didn’t. how could i? it was supposed to be you. and then i find out you’re with someone else, just a few months after. apparently i didn’t mean as much to you as i thought or as much as you made me believe. you hurt me not only because you moved on so quickly but because you lied to me so many times knowing how hard it was for me to trust. and you will never know just how bad you hurt me, but i forgive you because despite it all, i think i’ll always care for you. 

Hey its a letter to present me who feeds upon past memories 
They have moved on now its ur turn 
Why do u keep waiting when they 
Have showed no signs of return.
Ok i get it people tell me to be myself
But being that does nothing but hurt me 
For once let me be  someone else 
Someone who enjoys life 
Someone who doesn't find pleasure in death 
Someone who can leave her past behind
Let me be her, that girl 💃  


After knowing you for 4 years (48 months)
And being in a relationship with you for 1 year and 3 months (15 months) in my short 18 years on this earth you can just ignore me like you don’t even know me!
After all we have faced and been through together, we are total strangers.
Like I don’t matter at all!!
You have been in a 1/4 of my life ...
You know all my secrets...
You know all my worries...
You know all my fears...
You know everything about me..

And you can’t even reply to my text!
You can’t even reply to my good night text.

Love is fake
Love is blind

You give someone your heart and soul ,
I know we broke up 
I know we fight but HOW can you be so heartless towards someone you “loved”
Is that even possible ??
I know its impossible for me not to feel something for you because I actually love you!-not loveD-but LOVE you. You will always be in my mind and my heart!

But I think it is safe to say if you can treat me like this after you told me I am your one and only and your husband it all a lie!

I don’t expect us to stay friends or to be as close as we were I only excepted us to be civil to one another and be grown ups.
Clearly my expectations were to high if I expected us to be able to talk to each other over the phone and not to be ignored and casted away like a pice of trash.

Again...

Love is fake 
Love is blind

(I apologize this is stupid just need to talk to someone)

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