This is becoming a dating site , yet I’m still single , kya hi kharab kismat hai yaar ye😂

At least i get to meet new year people , thats a good thing.

Overthinking

Koi course to nahi kiya hai, par zindagi ko aasan banane me waqt bahut diya hai. 
Kabhi zindagi sikhati hai to kabhi logon se seekhta hu, kya karein ye zindagi ka syllabus jo anant hai. 
Koi mushkil me ho ya raaste nazar na aa rahe ho to thoda patience and thodi mehnat karte rehna mere dost. Kyuki mehnat aapko aage badhayegi aur patience mehnat krne ki himmat dega. 
Aur direction, uske liye jis insaan par sabse jyada yakeen ho ki ye mera bura nahi soch sakta, use baat karna. Kyuki direction se jyada bure waqt me kuch important nahi. 

Affirmations

Earphones se hee shaadi karlunga kisi din. Bina bakchodi pyaar karti hai. Kabhi kabhi nakhre karti toh charging pe laga deta.

Life

Sajj dhaj ke main zara bann than ke, baan chalaungi nayan ke

Music

My phone display gof half broken.. 
Ab logo ki story he ni dikha paa rhi 🤣🤣🙈

Anger Issues

Mene kuch anjane me bahut badi galtiyaan kar di. Jo morally sahi nahi thi. Uske liye mene apne dearone se kai bar mafi mangi unhone ek bar me maad bhi kar diya. But me jitni baar bhi mafi mangti kuch na kuch thoughts man me aane lagte jese ye colour dekh liya , ya desires aate h jabke agar ap mafi mang rahe ho to ap dil se mange us waqt dimag me kuch nahi ana chaiye. Mene fir finally jis din mafi mangi uske baad hota h na ke badi galtiyaan ki h to ab ekdam se normal baat mat karna chup raho. Me normal ho gae mene dearones se bola chalo gate ke bahar night walk pe chalte h unhone kaha nahi abhi nahi mene ek do bola esa fir mene us chiz ki bhi mafi mangi ke mene normal behave kyu kiya. Fir me irritate ho gaye wo sun nahe rahe the kyunki koi bhi apki apology baar baar sun ke bore ho jaega. To mene irritate hoke bola 'suno na' uski bhi mafi mangi , aur me mobile dekhne lag gaye. Mene mafi mangne se pehle khud se ye promise kiya tha ke mujhe kisi non-edible chiz ka addiction tha wo ab me nhi khaunge na dekhna na touch. But uska daily life me use h me ignore nahi kr skti ye bhi man me chalta h mere.  Mene last bar mafi mangne se pehle mobile bhi nahi chalaya jo aj ki date me kitna important h , tv nahi dekha , gane nahi sune , kisi dost se bt nahi ki meri kya halat ho gai hogi socho fir mene mafi mangi 'suno na' irritate hoke bol gai mafi bhi mangi or mobile dekhne lage. But meri halat bahut kharab h. me mafi bhi ni mang skti abhi kyunki agar me mafi mangungi to mujhe bahut time ho jaega. Meri body thak jaegi. Meri health bhi gir gai h. Me weak ho gai hu khana ache se nahi khati. Mujhe dr psychologist , meditation ki salah abhi mat dena me dr. Ko dikha diya psychologist se bhi session liye but har baar ek hi baat uske fee pay karni padti h. me kya karu ap meri jagah hote to kya karte mujhe bataiye i really need help. Me bahut jyada pareshan hu. Me kuch kam bhi nahi kar pate ache se.

Depression

ab yaad nahi 

yu tera muskurana ab yaad nahi 
yu mujhko bhool jana ab yaad nahi 
ek kitaab likhi thi mene humari kahani par
vo kitaab kahan rakhi hai ab yaad nahi 
me kabhi tera naam tha 
tu jese mera inaam tha 
kis baat par khoya, ab yaad nahi 
naa jaane kitna roya, ab yaad nahi 
mujhe dooriyon ka matlab samajh aata nahi tha 
ek khayal tha jo mann se jata nahi tha
par vo  kya khayal tha ab yaad nahi 
na jaane kesa haal tha ab yaad nahi
ab jhoot bhi achha bolne laga hu
dard itne hain ki unko tolne laga hu 
chhupana seekh gaya hu me sab baatein purani
koi pooche to keh deta hu ki ab yaad nahi 
chahein tera muskurana, chahein mujhko bhool jana
har baat ka ek hi jawab ki ab yaad nahi



Memories

Pata hai logo ke dil ke raaz hamesha raatho me chipe hote hai din ka kya hai wo toh hai hi awaara theherna toh sirf raato ne sikha hai

After a long day full of overthinking and being stressed at work, only Bollywood retro can heal me! 

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