(This is all in a two month time frame)
Today I felt the need to hurt myself. The emptiness I felt is undeniable. My best friend was slowly drifting away and I knew it. She was becoming hostile to me lately and I donโt know what I did, but she messaged me today and in spanish told me she hated me. After she said it was to the wrong person, but I knew that wasnโt the case.
My other friend who I was growing a little closer to since my best friend had been drifting away told me she felt that I was stealing her online friends (she had recently added me to a chat with them). She said sheโd always wanted friends of her own and for a safe place without her real life friends. It made me feel bad.
Also, these past few (more particularly 2) days I have lost a lot of trust in my mother. She promised me something twice and didnโt do what she promised (this was in a 2 day span). She also had let her boyfriend spend all of our money and now weโre basically bankrupt.
My nan talked about how smart I was, I was a little uncomfortable (for 2 reasons). One of the reasons is she was telling me to help people with my intelligence (I want to be an actress one day), and the second reason is simply I donโt know how to react to compliments. When I had told her I wanted to be an actress, she put down my dream in a matter of seconds.
I used to feel lucky and happy about life, like nothing could stop me, but now I realise that life isnโt that simple. Somehow I donโt feel sad, I just feel empty and betrayed. I feel like iโve lost my trust in everything, and itโs all at the fault of the ones I love.
Amrinderpreet @youareimportant
This is the time when you need to work on yourself. I know things like this happen, and people turn away from you for some reason. But this is the time to gather up and kind of start loving yourself as an individual before expecting the love and trust from others.
It is the human nature of bringing out their emotions without knowing the consequences of what can happen to the next person and how they will feel about things or reactions.
So, start loving yourself and take care of yourself. yoU feel like talking to someone, you can over here whenever you want.
Thank you for your words. They helped me. I will start working on my self ๐
Amrinderpreet @youareimportant
No problem:) and feel free to share if there is anything you need help with:)
I AM NEW HERE
YOU SEEM THE RIGHT PERSON TO TALK TO.
IS THERE AN OPTION TO MSG PEOPLE SEPARATELY
Amrinderpreet @youareimportant
Not that i know of. But you can post everything anonymously if u want and nobody will know.
People donโt always say or do what we want.
People donโt always keep their promises.
Family members arent always loyal.
People will use and take what they want.
Friends will let us down.
The secret is to overcome all this and life your own life.
Be positive start new friendships join new groups.
You have to kiss a few frogs in life before you get a prince.
Its time for a review and talk to your mother about her boyfriend. Maybe you both will benefit from that.
Plus self-protect yourself by now being aware of what can happen in life and do not allow your self to be in vulnerable situations.๐ฑ
