Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

This is about a person I met online.A complete stranger from a different continent😅.I usually don’t speak to guys(I’m an introvert and shy too).Well,online I spoke to few guys for a very short period of time.Maybe few min,an hour or so.But with this man I spoke for days and weeks.I opened up about myself.He also did.We both were not ready for any relationship and stuff.Well,by then I started having feels for him(just a little).I told him also.That was just a confession.But we remained friends.We had a huge fight during our first conversation,followed by 2 or 3 small fights.It was going literally very good when we decided to be friends.i loved it though.When I confessed and were sorting out things,I was lil broken and wanted to go away and not bother him anymore.He persuaded me.So I thought we can be friends…best friends.But he told that he can’t be my best friends because if he gets close to me it gives him different kinda thoughts and feelings.He rudely told me that,"I can’t be your counselor " so all these goodbye stuffs happened n no. of times by me.But almost all the time I said that I didn’t leave…I came back.i wanted to keep all these love and stuffs aside and be friends with him.But now from three days he’s saying that he’s busy.Sees my texts and tells me that he’s busy and will text me later and that later hasn’t come yet.Idk why…
I’m too talkative.i blabber a lot.He doesn’t like it though.that’s okay. But he listens to me that’s enough.
Idk what’s going on rn…
Hoping for the best though