🤏🏻 this close to having a mental breakdown and giving up. Things aren't good at home. It's literally destroying me mentally I'll go insane. 

Stay put, misery shall pass. Such is life. Talk to a friend, a colleague or a stranger. Stay put and you get to see the bright side.

hey! Take a deep breath, you’ll be alright. Everything good takes time. And honestly its okay to let it all out, or otherwise you will never get over it. I don’t know what you are going through, but I really hope you get better

Family

I feel like I am only existing, not living. What can I do to be happy again?

3am Thoughts

Can someone please give me tips to be less dramatic,over possessive,over sensitive..I'm just going through some things n due to that my behaviour is completely changed towards everyone....

Motivation

Yesterday I was feeling down( i screwed up a machine at work as its my first ever). The guilt that i have caused company this loss was eating me up. But after conversing with colleagues I realised that this is normal and even experienced employees also fail to be more efficient. it's not a big deal
These small talks with colleagues are satisfying 

Work

i passed through a phase
a bad one suicidal thoughts ,anxiety ,depression
things solved
days passed ,today it has been 3 years (almost)
i have totally become a different person
disciplined , i have my principles
and i just follow them
but i don’t know why i am so sad now
i don’t have friends
person i like keeps giving me on and off feedback
it was around 5 months ago
i removed 500 followers from my social media account
and now everyone judges me from my profile that i am not that famous of a person
but instead i was the most popular person at school and tutions i visited
life has been a mess
i don’ know what to do
how to control my emotions
how to be happy

Adulting

I'm having a mental breakdown! And its driving me insane. I want this to end.

Depression

Is it normal to feel less kinder as we grow up? like you are starting to feel numb and care less about your surroundings? am I the only one or is there something wrong with me?

I want to share these things if someone could help me out to handle this. I have severe OCD, even though I have been diagnosed for the past three years. Still 1 am not seeing any improvement. But whenever the doctor asks me how I am feeling, by that time i feel i am fine. Do it After returning home, especially when i am alone or no one sees me, i behave like mad.
These are my symptoms I am facing i am always scared Or god or any devotional thing (either it is pic, or Songi hear, any temple near my place). i feel like my sitting or lying position Is directed towards any temple or god pictures..etc..so 1 Can't sit or lay down properly for more than second... slaps me and then Sit again.. Won't be satisfied. again gets up and slaps me and sits..again repeat the same thing too many times till i feel like crying. whenever i read a Book or watching tv or sitting idle or doing some office work, all of a sudden i get the god/ goddess pictures flashes in my mind. and immediately i imagine them nude and their private parts or having sex each other, even sometimes with me too.- so i feel guilty and stand on my reet and slaps myself and asking for forgiveness and crying and begging excuse of my sinful thoughts - and i don't be satisfied by doing this once or twice. I do it repeatedly till i get tired and always get thoughts of spitting on the god pics, always want to kick them with my feet - immediately i realized it and again asking for excUse repeatedly. I Heard in my childhood that 'Sani Dev' is the powerful god and punish us for any sinful acts. I always remembers the name sani' prompting that Sani, Sani, .if i want to do anything, i immediately get a thought of 'if i st like this, Sani will attack, if i do like that Sani will come...if i drink water, Sani, It i don't read this, Sani and i keep changing my positions, directions, repeatedly.. and i wanted to wash my legs properly and if i don't wash properly, 'Sani' will attack...soi repeatedly wash legs again and again and make sure no gapS.. if a single drop of water fall on my leg or even if i feel wet on any of my leg, i have to wash my legs fully, otherwise Sani.. repeatedly...repeatedly.. It became how severe it is, all my thoughts of God got replaced by Sani.. Yes... I am getting thoughts of spitting on Sani, Abusing Sani with bad words, having sexual thoughts with sani... feel like if i get some thoughts of any other god like this, somehow could ask for forgiveness and relief. But getting
 these thoughts on Sani Dev are like hell to me... I really don't know how to pray how much I should beg for my abnormal thoughts. And thinking about over cleaning repeatedly washing hands .especially when Iam in periods, I literally change my dress at least 5 to 6 times in a day and even though if i wash my hands face properly, still i get the doubts like if there is any stain earlie..and i shouldn't touch there, my clothes shouldn't Touch there, so immediately remove that dress and 1 shouldn't be touched by myself by those clothes, so i wash repeatedly again and again.. I can't stop washing Tany water arops spll over irom the wash basin,, AlsO I repeatedly clean the things lIke chair,sofa..etc. thinking that my period stains touch that place, if i place my mobile or any object by mistake at that place, i do wash them TOo repeatedly.. even clean the things though they are not touching directly also..Ike It should be cleaned or any other object which is in contact of any other object that again which is in contact of that used clothes or anything like a chain (though there are no stains at all. am really tired of doing all these things on the whole day, i am unable to sleep properly, feeling to commit suicide, whenever i see high buildings, places...i desperately wanted to jump over it.. am still taking the medicines for this, still i am not happy With the treatment. am really fed up of taking pills from so long time and want to stop.. .hats why i am cheating myself and telling that i am Tine to the doctor and to my husband (he literally frustrated with me, he is getting angry if i tell him that still i have problem or it i am not fine)..
I always want to punish myself for my thoughts, Scared of each and every moment in my life, scared of the next minute of my life thinking something bad may happen...it is disturbing my work life, personal and family life.. Please help... please help..

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