Thinking about the friendships that just dissipate and the unresolved griefs that comes with that.

3am Thoughts

Can we talk......👉👈

Love

I want to talk to someone ...

Boyfriend

I was in relationship with a girl and jt was the best but I made up a fake story of not having parents my father died in army and mom when I was born because my ex had no parents and she got sympathy and I wanted same from my gf....... But later she found out truth and ik she knows the truth and won't ask me and I feel guilt for making this mess.... Now we broke up but she was love of my life I really want her and idk wt to do to make her mine 

Frustration

It's been 4 months of breakup, today my ex added a video with someone with hashtag couple goals, and i see them online late night every day, idk why it makes me sad, 
I feel like everything she told while in relationship with me was lie, how can she start dating someone else so soon? 
And I'm still in my bed crying . 


Breakup

There is a sudden surge of gloominess. It’s like I can’t stay happy for too long. Something or the other will always ruin my happiness; I am scared of being happy, so I never am. There is a constant cacophony of voices whispering in my ears telling me that there is something rotten inside of me and I find it near impossible to drown them out. I just hate myself so much. I don’t want to but I do. I also discovered that I have borderline personality disorder, so self hate comes from there. I don’t know how to live in this world, it’s like I don’t belong here. I have many people to talk to but I think I am just irritating them with my stuffs. There is a dear friend of mine, who is like my sister. I love her so much and not sure if she does to. She tells me she loves me but her actions says otherwise. She has inflicted so much pain on me, she is unaware of that and I don’t have enough courage to tell her this. I want her to say goodbye because I lack the courage to do it myself. I am drowning. I need a closure and no matter what I do, I don’t have so much guts to confront her. At this point, I think no one loves me, no one loves enough. I never their first priority. They only know I exist when someone is not there for them. I am not good at studies or anything. I am lost. I don’t even have me because I hate myself so much. I can’t stop asking myself why I hate myself so much. It just hurts. There is no solution to my problem. Seems like suffering is the only option. I need to embrace this pain, it is the only thing which won’t leave me. 

Lonely

The people who are always trying to be there for others, generally know how it feels to have nothing and no one.

Not everything that comes to you is yours.
Sometimes it comes to teach you the life lesson called 'let go'

© kiran shinde

Growing Up

How can you be more feminine? 
Or how do you make yourself to feel more feminine?

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