Things are worse now 😞 I realised I'm dealing with a toxic person from past few months. I'm suffering all the pain now.

Frustration

My boyfriend of 5 years in which the present 2 years are long distance has suddenly ghosted me. I have no means to connect to him as we are in different cities. Also not responding to the social media apps. How long should I wait before dating again ??

3am Thoughts

A clear sky, then the clouds came, beautiful one's...
The clouds became dark, making the sky even more beautiful.
And then came down the rain; making the sky hard to look at.
The rain stopped; there were no clouds to be seen.
The sky was not much to look at...

And when the clouds came again, all _ could see was the rain it upheld; and the sky it left behind.

Hey guys I'm new to this. Today I feel really weird because I feel like my friends don't really like me. Maybe I feel like nobody really likes me and I'm struggling with this. 

Friends

I wish u never made me feel this way 🥺💔

Feeling anxious 

Hope

So I'm leaving 2 different life first is in relationship with one person from last 9 years we are together from school days but from 3 years this person is not serious for our future and not making any efforts.... because of which i started feeling out of love but didn't ended the relationship and the other person who is far away from me we started talking in jan 2020 and fell first for me gave me attention and days went on talking sharing things but soon i realised that  it's just for and own benefits and started ignoring me treats me like nobody treated me according to moods for almost 1 year and i tolerated it and even I dont know why i did so 
 yes u can say i cheated on both of them but i didn't intended to do so things went with flow and i m in guilt on regular basis for doing this still i m not able to stop myself form talking to both of them now the person i met in jan wants to marry me both of them don't know anything about eachother i know i have done wrong many people will say i had played with feelings with both of them but i tried to get away from all this but now things are getting serious and i m in anxiety and panicking what to do next
And now I'm in a dilemma
 not here for judgment cause i know that i did wrong just want to get suggestions to get out of the situation and please don't say like just tell the truth to both of them 
PS : no hatred and bad words or else don't comment 

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts