There are so many things on my plate rn.. school, family, health but I just can’t keep up with it all. And when I try talking to my mom about it she just sais « u have to get through it/ the glass is half full… » which does not quite help… any thought on how to deal with feeling overwhelmed?

Other

Anybody else feel like they don't fit in? 
Like I don't feel like I belong to anything. Not a place, group, person, family, nothing. I just feel like an odd piece of a puzzle that doesn't belong to the picture. Does anybody feel this too??

Lonely

Feels like theres nothing right going on in my life, theres full chaos.

Life

I'm full of energy how is that possible? I'm not even feeling down y'all I'm happy cuz I feel crazy!

Happy

I wish i could just vanish for sometime and not feel anything.

Depression

i am 39 years guy married and working in private company . I was very happy when i was in college and school i have always motivated my self . After marriage i came to Delhi even my job  was left ... I stayed with my wife means no friend was there and i came in depression . I started taking depression medicine as suggested by doctors . In beginning we were not in condition to afford child . later we checked the doctor she said my wife have to go through surgery and IVF  we did all but it was not success ... Now its become nearly 13 years of marriage , my wife is busy with her own stuff writing something . I stay in Delhi but here people don't have time for others ..Even i go to GYM regularly , office even then i am depressed. Now a days in lockdown We have to work from home and gym is also closed . Even all my family members are busy they don't have time to talk to me. Even my wife is busy she like to be alone ..Now i am feeling totally alone and depressed.. Even i take anxiety medicine but at evening i usually take 4 can of beer to get sleep . Most of time i am feeling Alone no one to talk or hangon  I am afraid that i might get  more depressed in coming time.Please suggest me how to deal it  

COVID-19

I have so many thoughts in my brain on a daily basis, just like everyone else, and keeping them to myslef has started to make my head hurt. So even if no one reads these, I need to get them out there or I will go certified crazy.

Most my feeling and thoughts revolve around loneliness and the feeling of having no one. Seems very basic, but I know that my thoughts and emotions are getting so powerful, deep and intensely depressing that they pose a threat to me and those around me. I dont know when and how I started to feel this way, but I think about how alone I am and about other people every minute of every day and it is affecting my career. All I want is to study, do something productive and live myself, but the thoughts of other people and what they think of me consumer me so much that they prevent me from doing anything.

And the funny part about all this is that I actually kinda find everyone around my annoying and intolerable. And holding onto the people I do like spending time with is so hard because everytime I think about talking to them, I get the feeling of self-pity like why would they talk to me, I am sure they have better friends and noone really likes me, or that I dont like them and the only reason I am talking to them is because I need someone to talk to.

Anyways I really need therapy and will probably start it soon when I am less shit scared about exploring the fucked up shit in my brain, but I want to write everyday and I hope someone out there reads these and knows theyre not alone (just like I hope I am not :)

3am Thoughts

I don't know why but these days I'm feeling like not to do anything. And it is making me feel so sad.

I’m so tired… I should’ve of listened to them when they told me to get help when I was younger. Now it caught up with me. I have no choice now but to deal with these issues within myself. I longer feel like myself. I don’t know who I am anymore. I’m scared that she’s gone forever. I wish I was like other women, confident in who they are and the ones who don’t care what others think. They are confident in who they are and move on a special frequency. I wish that was me. The anxiety I get from even thinking about creating friendships with people is exhausting. I can’t trust anyone and when I try to socialize with anyone just even a little I feel terrible after. They say try to put yourself in uncomfortable situations so you can grow but when I do force myself it just makes me feel worse after every time. It doesn’t feel like it gets better like people say. I want to heal but how can I when I don’t know how to. I feel stuck.I’ve been feeling stuck for a long time now. It’s not I can see the light above me but I can’t seem to reach it. I’m held down. I’m so tired of fighting this battle. It gets so lonely. Everyone around me seems to have it together and if they go through something in life they get through it it seems like I just stay stuck. I don’t understand. 

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