there are so many things i wish i knew 
before you came into my life,
like how to say “i don’t feel okay today,
i don’t want to go out tonight.” or “can you please hold me while my heart breaks? can you listen to me cry?” or “i need you, please stay,together we’ll be just fine.” there are so many things i wish i knew,like how to say i love you. 

I just wish I could get over him, once and for alllll.

I wish I knew how to just say everything I felt to him, without the fear of being judged or criticized or being called "chape"

Other

How do you know you're in love? 

3am Thoughts

Which thing's you to do follow to get closer towards success??.

Gratitude

https://youtu.be/Qg5HyccSXBY
Truly such an inspirational song <3

Music

It's like my throat is blocked and body has given up
How do I stop the shaking
How do I breathe

Depression

Sath deni wali ho fir toh adipurush bhi puri dekh luga 🙇🤷🙆

Today was weird. It was a day full of emotions
Woke up at 6:08 which is like 8 minutes late but  somehow it makes me upset 😂 did some physics and honestly I suck at it , did I get frustrated? Ohhh yesss ! But I still tried to stick to my schedule and played a 30 min cardio video which idk why but felt too long . I tried to meditate but I just couldn’t focus . The inner me was screaming at me “ rehende yr mat kr try aaj ka din nhi hai tera “ but no I kept trying , thought I should dress up nice and cute today . So I chose a piece of cloth that means so much to me because someone who meant alot to me at a point of life loved it . I remember everytime I wore it ,I was basically forced to send pictures 😂 since I fast , I am supposed to take my meals between 10:30-8:30 (14:10) but today jldi Bhookh lg gyi thi toh maine 10 bhaje kha liya tha 🥹 now I was 100% certain that today is just not my day so I spent hours lying on my bed , listening to music but then eventually the clock hit 4 and I was supposed to go to my institute. I joined it 6 months ago and I thought I haven’t been able to make friends, like for sure not aise friends jo mujhe miss kre if I’m absent one day or friends who care about me but today I felt different, I was a little quiet today and 3 guys came to check up on me . I repeadlty said kuch nhi hua mujhe tumhe kyu lg rha hai and he responded with “ tu aise chup chup nhi rehti tu itna toh bolti hai aaj kya hogya” or or ek se mai aise hi naraz thi because he said something rude to me ( still a child , yes) and he came to me and tried to convince me . I felt special ( after a long time )  also also me in that sweater ( yes that special piece of cloth ) was complimented alot today which just reminded me of that “someone “ 
Today , even tho started in a bad way ended up actually being a really good day !

Happy

hey guys!
i need your advice about my problem. so, my bf is from the state. we're in ldr almost 3 years and we didn't meet yet until now. it makes me crazy. due to covid, my country didn't allow visa for tourist or visitor as unmarried couple. at first, i don't think it's such a big deal. i searched many possible way we can meet. here's the option:
1) meet in turkey. because turkey already open the border for tourist and my country is got VOA from turkey. it'll easy for me and him.
2) he comes to indonesia using an agency. he only need to pay $250 for e-visa and already got sponsorship from the agency. 
3) we wait until indonesia officially open tourist visa, which is impossible for now. i believe they'll open normally at the end of 2022.
i believe the option 2 is the best way. but he always make an excuse about this and that. and i'm the only one who search about that info. i feel that he's not serious with me. what should i do? i'm feds up

Long Distance Relationship

"I hate that,I still think that you really love me."

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