There are so many people who rely on me for their own balance, but no one that I can rely on. 

Because we understand nd rspect their feeling but they don't..🙁

Adulting

i love my hair 

Happy

How does it feel when you are not wanted somewhere....when people see you as a burden or out cast 

3am Thoughts

Heyyyy y'all,  found this app through a post my sister shared. Hopefully this will be the safe space I am imagining it to be like.
So for my first post, all I want to say is how annoying is it to have an overachiever sibling??🙄😣
Having this urge to alwayys meet people's expectations definitely does not help. When one part of u wants to live on its own terms and the other wants to please everyone. 
I definitely hate this hustle culture. 

Peer Pressure

I have exams soon and no matter how much I study I can't recall anything. Is something wrong with me?

Books

I am so pissed off and so Im gonna rant here about this psycho ex-boyfriend of mine. I just blocked him today. But what is driving me up the fucking wall is how psycho he is. We were already in the process of breaking up, and we were just talking about how we felt and he said "I basically got over it in 5 days". I told him thats not very cool, it takes me months to get over peope, and that the only time I get over someone that fast is because I never loved them in the first place. He says normal people get over things quickly because he read it on a pyscholgoy article, that 1 year together = 1 month of getting over it, and he started calcuating it!! Hes like "So half a year together means one would need 2 weeks to get over it, and we were together for 5 months so thats like 1 week and a half.. If you think I should spend more than that amount of time sad over you, you obviously dont validate or care about my feelings" and then I completely lost it. I started screaming and crying telling him that he's insane and how tf did he come up with the conclusion that I didnt care?? I hung up and text him all this shit about how hes insane, has no emotional intelligence, cant be real, cant connect to people, everything he does is like a guilt trip for me! He also constantly tells me I need to go see a doctor because he worries about MY mental health.. And he said I was the one with the problem because I get mad over nothing, and then I blocked him. Im very tired. I dealt with a guy just like this a few years back, the only way I got rid of him was by completely ignoring him.. I cant deal with toxic shit no more man. Anyways, sorry for the long rant. 

Long Distance Relationship

Hey anyone? Feeling lonely:(

Acne

Hey, 
I just wanted to write this bcuz I had this bottled up for a while and I kinda have no one to talk to (disclaimer it's really long). I am 14 and my parents are in the mid 40's - late 50's range. This year my aunt died and it was hard for my dad as well as his relatives, now he has to deal with the pressure of being fired due to the economy going down.My mom is unemployed due to company stuff. Both of my parents are worried that I won't be able to go to school anymore and that we'll have nothing once we go back to our country. I understand their concerns but I don't know what to do... My mom and dad always told me stuff like: 'your dad uses money on useless things' or 'he is obsessed with technology that he doesn't think about our future' or 'your mom is always talking about saving money or what we use our money on, she doesn't even pay for the car that she wanted I have to pay for everything' or 'if I die you will have this amount of money and you could go to your aunts and uncles so they could help you settle' or in the past they would tell me 'I will die because of you'. Not exactly the type of thing you would want to hear growing up. I don't hate them or despise them. I just feel hurt because instead of explaining the situation to me they just keep it bottled in until they burst. These few months I tried talking to them but they wouldn't tell me anything until one day my mom just burst in my room crying, angry and scared telling me everything in that moment. I thought maybe its my fault for not being able to control my emotions, I acted unruly because they wouldn't tell me anything clearly and got mad at me for not understanding. I know I acted childish. But it really hurt. Sometimes I don't understand why they are mad at me. I always had to be understanding and strong. Whenever I cried they told me to stop crying or else they'd hit me. So I kinda bottled everything up to the point of suicidal thoughts but it never pushed through - thankfully. I don't know what to do to help them reach their dream of retiring. My dad nearing 60 still has to work until I finish college or at least finish High school and it hurts to have to see him suffer mentally and emotionally because of conflicts in both work and family then have the burden of me still being a freshman. My mom has problems with her health and is mentally strained due to family problems as well as her illness. I don't know how to help them; I am not smart enough to get a scholarship or sporty enough to receive a scholarship of that kind to ease their burden. I know that I am not permanently staying in the place I am in now and that someday we will go back but it seems like my parents think it's too soon if I go back now. They say I will miss a year or two of school. I don't know what to do to help... 

Family

Why are therapy sessions so fuckin' expensive??

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