The reason why I feel so unmotivated about going to school right now is because I used to go to school to escape our house. And I use our house to escape school. But now with online classes, I'm trapped. I'm in both at the same time and it's sickening.

I can undertand it ....
Just i am tired of both of them now....

Why u want to escape your house and school

School

The past, the present, and the future walk into a bar. 



It was tense!

Exhausted

I have constant anxiety. Every single day and I can’t stop it. I’m very successful with my work but I just can’t stop feeling anxious. 

I’ve tried working out, meditating, eating clean everything. I cry every single day. I’ve tried talking to therapists. I don’t know what to do anymore. 

Anxiety

Hugs or kisses? 

3am Thoughts

So I was feeling unwell today so i stayed home from school. My dad made my brother go to school, since he was finding every single excuse not to go. My brother threw a tantrum (he's 14). He swore the hell out of our dad, and stormed out to school. Left my dad crying.

Now I feel extremely uncalm. Im scared. I feel so bad for my dad and I felt guilty because I'm fully conscious that I don't do much for my parents. I don't swear at my dad Never I don't want to be that kind of daughter, I'm scared of my dad thinking I'm bad and ungrateful. He was talking on the phone with someone. He was ranting about how his own kids treat him like shit. I felt like I can't hold it in, I feel a lot of pressure when it comes to how my dad sees me. It's so hard.

And Im so mad at my brother. He always treats people like shit when he's in a bad mood, but then, I don't treat him well. And neither of us can ever try to treat the other well to make them stop because we both are treated badly by each other that it's hard to even step up first. But then I'm scared and guilty because I have a therapist (I have an ed, suicidal thoughts, avoiding things I'm anxious of: school) but I know my brother needs one more than I do. But then he makes me so mad because he's always mad about our younger sister. He's just damn frustrating. 

Now I feel so uncalm. 



Family

anyone here 12th class student commerce ? 

Intro

When I ask myself what I want to become in life or what are my ambitions ,I find that my life is actually goalless ,zeal less.Its not that I dont enjoy it,but when it comes to do productive things ,I cant find any motivation from inside.Not so many years ago,I was indeed a scholar in my class,I was a  curious guy,looking to the outer world ,observing things.Physics ,History of mankind and great scientists .....these were some topics that always attracted me......but now I am an average student in my class of BTECH engineering,skillless,talentless,procastinator,daydreamer.The main reason for this downfall is a little diffferent and I will reveal that too when the time will come for it.But  for now ,I am lost in life,enjoys temporary happiness but nothing owe something that is beneficial for me in long time.....I am writing this here cuase I am lookin for a friend with which I can share and exhange some emotions and difficulties that one face ,fighting with himself or herself for improvisation......I am an Indian so its not very easy to find such friend with whom you can share such things.

It feels so nice to irritate a man, he blocked me? I'mma made another account and irritated him byie 

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