The oldest sibling urge to ruin myself after just fixing my life just to have something to work on fixing again otherwise I won’t get anywhere, I will just be stuck there, as I know damn well nothing will happen even when I’m in my best mental state because I just don’t get to be given chances like that— I can’t just win after doing my best. So, ruin my sleep schedule. Mess up my academics. Destroy my emotional health. And fix them, again. Just like last time.
Why @whyamihere
What if you’re wrong ? Just this once ? You’re not god you couldn’t possibly know you’re going to fail every single time. So try … try your best … if you fail try again… it’s life.
Doesn’t matter if you fail 100 times it matters that you tried and maybe you will pass that 1time
