The feeling you get when you have assumed that someone is cheating on you and they proved you right🥲🥲🥲dukh dard sab yaad ajata hai ek baar mein hi

I have been assuming it for so long that It doesn't hurt me that much...so I'm trying to be okay I guess😅😅thank you for asking

the fact that you knew this was going in is next level, istg. it’s gonna be very bad for a couple of weeks tbh but you will be at ease later. No one deserves to be with sucha shitty person, and you will thank for removing yourself from his/her life.

3am Thoughts

Mere life bht kuch chl rh hai, pata nahi chal raha par kya! 
Merko anxiety aur overthinking ki problem hai, every evening i think to go away from home or i feel uneasy like air is not near me, i dont know what to do🥺


Anxiety

My phone display gof half broken.. 
Ab logo ki story he ni dikha paa rhi 🤣🤣🙈

Anger Issues

 Aaj labzo se mere alfaaz na nikle 
Mere apne bhi kuch khaas na nikle 
In chaar diwari ke ghar me yaaro!
Suna yahi aksar ki aawaz na nikle. 

Kabhi samajhne me khud ko 
Aur samjhaane me apne 
Ek baar bhi vo bekaar na nikle
Jo zindagi bhar rahe sath mere 
Badkismati se koi mere yaar na nikle 
 Aaj labzo se mere alfaaz na nikle,
Jab apno ke liye dil se saaz na nikle.

Khoobsurat thi duniya khoobsurat tha ghar 
Kabhi haste hasate kat jaate the pehar 
Aaj sochke aksar hum jaate hain darr
Ki kahi mohabbat bhi inki ehsaan na nikle 
Ye Ghar mera zindon ka samshaan na nikle. 


Poetry

Samajh ni aarha m kya feel kr rhi hui abhi. Aj ek bhut ajeeb chiz hui m phone band krke sone k lia leti hi thi ki mummy raat me upr aayi dawai khane kuki unke teeth me dikkat ho rhi thi pura muh suj rha tha.. or dawai khate hue unke gale me goli atak gyi.. or vo ajeeb trha se khasne lagi unko saas aana band ho gya or vo chalte hue mere pass ayi awaj dene ka try kr rhi thi pr m unki awaj sun ni pai unhone mere upr pani feka pani mere muh pr gira m achanak daar gyi kya ho gya.. m khadi hui unse pucha kya hua unhone isharo me btaya goli fas gyi.. m turant gilas le kr rasoi ki taraf bhagi pani lene.. pani laa kr diya tb unko saas aaya bhai bhen niche se bhag kr aaye mummy ko pani pene k lia bola or bathaya  thoda pith pr haath mare tb jakr goli gale se nikli. Samajh hi ni aaya ek dm se kya hua vo ajeeb se feeling or daar maan me beth gya.. thodi der baad bhai bhen unko niche le kr gye mere to maano hath per se jaan hi nikal gyi ho. Vo ek paal itna bhari tha ki sari duniya mano ulti ho gyi ho meri. Maan me bs yhi tha agr kuch ho jata ho kya hota. 

Other

How to deal with ' kya kahenge log ' thing? 
Whenever i wear some good clothes i am stressed by the fact that my fellow batchmates will judge me, they pass commments and laugh at it, so how to deal with it?

Stress

Yar kuch logo se na mujhe badi irritation hoti hai. Matlab inhe reply karne ka bhi man nahi karta. Lekin dena padta hai. Or jab ye itni bakwas karte hain na to man karta hai block kar du

Frustration

Ek shyam us haseen chehre ke name ki
Yaddo se unki jaam se shuruwat ki
Shrab or kalam se uske barre likhte rahe
Wo puri  raat hamne unke  name ki 
U kho gae the uski yaad me
Na gam raha apni bato me 
Na hosh raha in aakho me 
Na yakin hai uske waddo mai
Dekh uski tasveer muskura rahe the hum
Akho mai uski jhalak dekh pa rahe the hum
Soch ke hume wo bhi yadd kr rahe the 
Unki narazgi se mehsus kr pa rahe the hum
Uski baato me khud ko soch rahe the
Takriban hum uske ho  gaye the
Fir kismat ne apna kam krdiya
Yuu jlla dill ankho se ro rahe the
Pyarr ki hawa mai kho raha tha mai 
Kyu uski tasveero ko dekh ro raha tha mai

Love

Koi abhi khud ko mature samajh ta h kya .....jisse me relationship advice le sakta hu ?


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