the fact that i crack most of the jokes and still the most depressed person in my family is fuckin amazing 

Depression

I am tired

3am Thoughts

Hey, so i just installed this application to express my feelings 
It’s all started when i was younger. my mother’s dad(i won’t call him grappa) was harasses me everytime he came to our house, everytime my mom told me to call him for breakfast for lunch for dinner it’s really everytime. so he was puting his hand on me and playing with my *}#€, and i remember he was warning me to not tell my mom and my sister and that’s what i do i never told anyone till now…
Please don’t say to tell my family because i can’t my family doesn’t deserve that they live in peace especially my mom she can’t handle that 

Child Abuse

They used to care, but not now. Feels like they have changed or my perspective have

I feel like I really need someone to talk


Ho na zaroorat baaton ki
Milein lakeerein haaton ki
Saalon si umar ho raaton ki
Aise bhi dekhe dono pal pyaar ke..

#jhakmaarke

Music

Anyone interested for long talks.??
As casual talks.?😊

I have my CA exams in 2 months but i able to concentrate on studies at all of my freinds got engagged in this month and even my cousns of my age got engaged their marraiges are near to my exam i was soo excited for their marraiges as well as i want to clear the exams but i m not able to concentrate 

Stress

Why does everyone say good things but not show it in their actions? Someone cares for me and i am their best friend, but he doesn't even get a minute time from his day to reply to a message of mine. I mean i need a proof for whatever u say, people say i matter and they dont pick up my calls, or call back? Not looking at my messages while they were obviously on their phone. What are the reaaons? Am i too obsessed about keeping in touch with people, or do i reply too early that they take me for granted? I feel lonely every now amd then, and wen i call or message, i have no one to comfort me. I was nothing but a good friend to everyone. 

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