Anirudh @lazymudbender
The dreary feeling of emptiness and a sense of incompleteness inside us… It’s really hard to work myself out of it. Like, always thinking that I’m not good enough or I don’t deserve good things;
All those pessimistic and negative thoughts, are just too hard to deal with. Yes. People help us. There are some wonderful people who could relate to our problems and help us. But sometimes i feel it’s too much to ask from them, be it friends or family.
I wish I was left alone for sometime so that I could get some perspective and accept my true self.
Im about to write exactly this. Then i read yours. What a coincedence. I have an interview tomorrow. My sister and her husband wants to drive me there. I got my own car. They gonna drive for me. But then i still feel like im such a burden. I hate asking for a help. I hate people helping me. I feel like im not good enough to manage my own thing. Idk . Life has been so stagnant. Overthinking take over my mind. I got the offer that i always wanted in the city i always dream to live. And i turn it down. Because i feel like im not good enough. My self esteem is not that good. And my ex make it even worse. He said that i have terrible job. Im driving like an idiot. And so on. So yeah, im all alone now navigating this world.
Anirudh @lazymudbender
I’m really sorry to hear this, and yes, it is so hard to deal with. But the only thing that we could hold on is hope. Hoping that we could come out of this, hoping that things would get better, hoping that we could get out of this pessimism and do what we want to do. It is a work in progress, but we still have to do it, maybe? (That’s what people say, coz the process is painful to go through)
Though I’m in a mental mess, i still have this tiny hope that things will get better. So yes, let us all hold on to that little puddle of hope and remind ourselves that it’s okay to smile and be ourselves. Yes, it’s easier said than done. But it’s good to try it out right? (Sorry, I’m having a lot of random thoughts 🙈)
Anirudh @lazymudbender
And yes. I got this hope that there are people who could understand me and i could understand. So listening and venting out works. So yeah. 😁
True. Me too. Im navigating this whole wolrd with so much thought and hopes. And i love buy me little treats when im going back from work like a donut or egg tart. It lify me up. Hahhaa. Now i spend so much time loving myself and i wont deny it gets lonely sometimes. But that is much better compared to previous disrespect that i receive. Cheers to many moree surprises we would face in the future!
Shristi Singh @shristi300...
I can relate to each and every line i swear! And i really want to get out of this situation i want to he confident as everyone else but i really cannot get out of this trap of my own my mind
We are on the same boat. Hehehe. I read this one thing. If the best things offered or happened to you, it is because it always yours. You are good enough just like everyone else in your mind. Speak good words to yourself. In the end of the day you always have you and yourself. ❤
Anirudh @lazymudbender
Yeah. It’s really hard. But at the end of the day, we got this. If we dig deeper, we could realise that everything happens for a reason, even suffering and loneliness. We could feel lonely, even after being surrounded by people whom we love, and it’s not their fault(not our fault either). But the process of working through these emotions and infusing some sense of hope and positivity is really hard, and it’s hardly discussed. But still, we all got this. All we need is some time for ourselves, doing our favourite things, no matter how crazy it is, having those people to vent out, and also listen to others.
And yeah. We all got this. ♥️
Anirudh @lazymudbender
So true 😁 thank you for sharing this. 🙏
