That just too many breakdowns
One after the other 
I just want this to end 
Why am I like this 
I want to get better

Everything hurts 

No I am not 
I literally want to jump off a cliff but there isn't a cliff near me😐

Depression

I got rejected by for marriage by a software engineer because of my weight and now I m hurt I m feeling insulting and mazak bana k chalega does size really matters so much  

Hi,
4 years ago, I had a crush on one of my colleagues(can say one sided love).
I confessed my feelings to him but he decently dodged the confession. 
 Pendamic came and we started work from home. After a few months we both switched to another companies. We used to talk occasionally on chat, I used to keep waiting for his texts his small gesture or gif made my heart flutter.. it was hard to control my one sided feeling so I decided to stop talking to him.

Few months later he lost his mother, he texted me and I wanted to run Chennai and console him. But I knew he saw me as a friend so I didn't express my feelings. 
 One year later he texted that he is getting married. It broke my heart. It took me time to accept it.. I congratulated him and made up my mind to move on in life. 

Later, Work from office started and I got busy in my life.. after a few months of his wedding, again he texted and we had a casual talk about work and life. He said he is having problems in his married life, things are not going right and they are planning to get divorce. I thought there was a usual husband wife fight so, I tried to explain to him. I was leaving the banglore in a few days so, he said he wanted to meet before I left. He flew from Chennai to Bangalore and we met, He told all the problems, I tried my best to give solutions but no use.
After that he started texting often, giving updates about his life, many times he said he made a big mistake in life to not understand my feelings that time. He is regretting his decision. 

I didn't want to give him hopes from my side because now it won't be any chance for us to be together. But he said he wants to live his life with me. He had feelings since starting but didn't express because it might affect my career. 

Now I don't know what to do.

Colleague

just feel like going M.I.A on all my family and friends. Feel like not being around them

3am Thoughts

Hii guys, i hope you are doing good. lam writing this today coz iam in a very confused state. My boyfriend and I have been not in happy terms since a week and yesterday we thought we will meet once.
Day before yesterday my bp went so low and he was worried about me tbh I don't know if he's really guilty or if he can't cope with the guilt.
All these days we weren't talking nicely and had a break up because it started with me saying him that my aunt has asked my mom for a match making though iam just 20 yrs old. They just want to have a word. And he started with the fight saying I can't do big jobs like your father that and this. I didn't say anything coz in the starting of the relationship he was the one who said i have to get a good job so that we will be happy and so as your dad. But now he is talking like no matter what i be you have to make sure your parents accept me. I said atleast ok don't do the big jobs like we planned before but atleast do something like a job of good respect so as you said we all can be happy he said i will do something but whatever it is make sure they accept. Tbh I didn't like his attitude but the love i have towards made me adjust this. Ik what he said is right but he is the one actually made a decision before even getting in to a relationship that i will do good nice not for anyone but for us. Ok leave that, now a days he is not even being interested in anything.
Yesterday when we met he bet me coz all these days i cried a lot and my bp became low. He's so angry saying what if something bad happened then how could he live without me.
Later he hugged me and got lil physical with eachother💕.
And when we get home and talk to each other on calls or texts he will always be so rude or not interested. He hasn't been sweet to me since so many days &
Even though i tell him this he doesn't care but when we have a fight like we had in last week he says that atleast you will be happy without me, i have to change a lot, you are not happy with out me and so on. See atlast today i asked him what he wants for our anniversary and yk what he said "hey c'mon light... it's peaceful when we bother these things less". I mean why is he always talking about peace and no pressure. Is this even pressure?? Why is he so disinterested? 

Boyfriend

When u realize u were living in a delusional world....

Delusion

I need your opinion guys. I have my ex after our brkup we agreed to be friends then we used to talk sometimes suddenly he disappeared never picked calls or called back. After few days i posted a travel pic on my insta then he unfollowed me and after few months again followed back. Idk whats happening can anyone tell me...

So someone asked for be to friend them, then they asked me to invest in cryptocurrency. 

Frustration

Can someone please suggest a good psychologist please 

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