Tell me every terrible thing you ever did, and let me love you anyway. 

Love

I’m getting where I want to be and I know I did it all alone, I’m not complaining. But it’s feels so lonely when you’re on stage holding a trophy and none of the people you thought would we cheering and whooping for you are there. Like proving a point you feared would be true, you are in-fact alone. 

Depression

It's always us who allow our memories to disturb us. Only constant practice of self awareness can make us rid of it. 

Life

I have been staying in hostel for almost 5 years now but these days I feel I'm getting kinda homesick not particularly homesick it's that stupid feeling you get when you are away from your safe zone..some sort of an alien feeling which is sooo uncomfortable...it's soo hard for me...life is soo hard for me..i wish i could stay happy like everyone ..be happy like everyone..i wish i could stop missing my bf and just let down the weight of everything and just be happy😖

3am Thoughts

So I wrote this in phone's notes and I still can't answer myself 😂 lol 
13/4/20
2:43pm 
This online class leave me exhausted. I don't find myself productive nor happy. All I do is to sit in front of my mobile and stare it for hours then get to computer and try to complete my homework and then tution and repeat. 
My insomnia is getting worst like I can't just sleep and if I say something to maa papa they'll be like all because of phone or just go to sleep. No other way but just to cope with it 🤡 I'm just hating it here every day I feel more and more unworthy and I try hard to love myself but it's hard it's like I'm playing the victim card to myself I know that I'm not telling all this to someone but I truly want someone to notice I'm drying inside and maybe I'm writing this in hope someone read this one day and understand me a little
Or Maybe I'm being dramatic and doing too much Im totally fine I'm just showing myself as victim to just get out of the responsibility I have. Maybe I'm seriously not ok and I should ask someone out to help me though this or just shut my mouth cause what I'm thinking is just an illusion to make myself as a victim in my own eyes I don't know if I'm sad or acting like I'm sad or I'm even happy when I smile or it's just a mask I putting on to show the world and myself that I'm happy what I think of the world is actually me or just what the world want me to be I'm I writting this to get attention or I'm really sad. These tests are real or just acting to showcase myself sad? Do I really feel sad or I'm just overthinking is this overthinking or my real feeling I want someone to know to consider it comfort me ? Am I ok or I'm pretending to be? 

Overthinking

What doesn't kill you gives you life long trauma!!! 

I think you'll never be enough for anyone. Although I try so hard every day to change myself to a better self, someone will always be unhappy. It's so sad that I meet this person after so long and the only thing he does is complaining about my weight and about my social skills. Now I feel so conscious around him, I feel that I embarrass him.

Anxiety

Today I feel same confused not understanding what to do where to go because where ever I go I make mistakes not simple huge mistakes and now I m tired my parents are tired as I am girl kuch hua toh kaun shaadi karega isliye jo karna hai shaadi karke karo.

Feminism

Sahel I love u , u understand me so well . Do u feel the same, 

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