Talking stage will mentally drain you and leave you broken when you guys said love you & literally acted like a couple but never actually became one. And one day it ended just like that. 

One person never wanted relationship that’s why 

Love

Jaldi weightloss kaise kre😶 maine 10 din tk oily or chini khana chhod diya or exercise bhi krti thi daily but ab tk 1 kg bhi kam nhi hue😓😓

Frustration

Looking for a good conversation 

Friends

No 1.
my first time using dis web...i hope it can help me..i guess..i dont care..i just want to write something..hahaha..well...hello to everyone tht read my first post ever..hope u guys doing fine..i wish u guys will hv better day than me...i always have worse day ever but i still want to survive..i want to live..can i?😅😅

Kya lagta hai zindagi kaisi honi chahiye?

Depression

We're all messy. We're all struggling.
We are all flying high in some ways and falling flat on our faces in others. Nobody has it all figured out. It's our job to cheer each other on, lift each other up, and push each other to keep giving it our best. It matters who we surround ourselves with... We need to be better to each other. We're all we have.

Affirmations

For you✨

You are the main character of your story
there will be lots of drama, emotions, deception almost everything
but in the end you will shine....

- Queen 👑

Mental Wellbeing

//I am verry sorry if there's any misspelling in this post. And sorry if this is kinda too long but I really wanted to talk about this and this is the first website I found//

So about 9 months ago I signed with the modeling management of my dreams. But for me to be in selection I have to do certain things, including losing weight. My body size is pretty average but I still needed to be a specific size to go international. 

At first it didnt bother my at all and I was pretty determined to do this. I worked out everyday, had an average diet etc. After I lost weight I was prwtty happy with myself, but people kept saying I looked "too skinny" and that I'm "taking it too far". And it wasnt until I got skinny shamed by someone that I realized I was very skinnier than usual. And it affected me alot...so I started binge eating. 

Spoonfulls of my favorite pasta, eating a bunch of snack etc. And it felt good for the most part, until I had to go back to management to meassure myself. I was either the same size or bigger even. And that was the start of a loop of just vomiting, working out and not eating, to thinking I'm too skinny (or people saying I am) and binge eating again. 

And this happened for month and months and it really affected my mental health. 

After about 8 months I was so tired of being stuck in that unhealthy loop that I finally suggested that I start working as a plus size model. My management agreed since obviously nothings really happening with this. And I was so happy that I finally have freedom and not be preassured to lose weight. 

But that also became the 2 months that I have been eating alot...too much. And I gained weight obviously, and I was happy about my body image etc. And then people started commentijg about how much I gained weight.
I didnt wanted it to affect me but now eveytime I look at myself I feel like I'm abusing my freedom of "not losing weight" by eating alot more than I ever did in my life. And I cant help it. 

So i dont know what to do and its been bugging me for weeks.
Any advice? 

A.

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