Still angry and hurt after 6 months has passed. My close friend that I was having a sexual relationship with too for almost 4 years ended it with me because he made some random girl pregnant and therefore chose her over me. I was too scared to tell my feelings to him all those years and he also scared to share his feelings towards me. So we lost each other for nothing. For a stupid woman that was just as stupid as him not knowing the basics of sex. Having unprotected sex imeans a high risk of pregnancy. How stupid can you be??? And the fact that they didn’t even live in the same country made me even more angry. The girl could be using him just to get a free pass to a western country. I really wish their relationship will be a disaster and that he will regret this for the rest of his life. And that I will be able to move on finding a much better guy that treats me right. And this so called friend of mine will be sorry for his fucking mistake. I hate him and the other woman so much. I’ve never wished the life out of someone but I do now. To her and that fucking baby in her stomach. If this pregnancy wasn’t a fact this friend of my would probably never ever consider a committed relationship with her. How can I move on? I doubt there are any good guys out there. I was so good to my friend and he was indeed attracted to me but still I couldn’t be his first choice. Fuck that. I think all of this ruined our friendship as well. What should I do?
JUST GIVE YOURSELF SOME SPACE.
WITH ALL THIS ANGER ,GUILT , REGRETS AND MIXED EMOTIONS GETTING THE SOLUTION OR RIGHT PATH WOULD BECOME DIFFICULT.
PROCESS YOURSELF TAKE SOME TIME GET BUSY ADAPT NEW HOBBIES.
I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MUST BE GOING THROUGH .
AND I HOPE EVERYTHING GETS BETTER .
IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO VENT EVERYTHING OUT I AM HERE FOR YOU.
Thank you for your reply. I appreciate that someone understands what I’m going through. The very few people I’ve spoken about this keep telling me to forget him. But it’s not easy when you’ve been thinking about the same guy for years, thinking it would lead to something serious some day and thinking HE would be the father of my child one day while at the same time trying to gather confidence in telling him my feelings… I do try to be busy but these feelings are hard to remove or suppress. Whenever I’m alone my mind starts to overthink and I get so angry and disappointed all over again. I tried reaching out to him a couple of times in the beginning but all his replies were either non existent or very short and just saying “I can’t changed what happened”. I just wish he could feel really guilty and that he could give me a sincere apology. He keeps watching my stories on my social media though so I don’t really know what goes on in his head. I do genuinely think that he did like me but got in an awkward position which lead to him ending things with me. Now I keep thinking if I would have become pregnant I could have also “trapped” him. I just never thought he was that kind of guy and that he would only commit to someone he actually loved and had known for a longer time, and not some random person carrying his baby all of a sudden. Life is very confusing and surprising I’ve learned. I keep thinking that he is the looser in this too, but I hate that he is just so cocky and confident in his choice. I do hope and wish everyday that their relationship will never lasts.