Spending time with cousin is good but staying up all night and that too with cousin is the best 🤟🏻

Still in india ? Wapis jaane ka mann nhi ? 

Happy

I was Sexually Assaulted by my cousin and his dad separately multiple times. Sad to see them around regularly unfortunately no one knows other than me. Never through a brother would do such thing to a sister. 

Child Abuse

Is it normal to have a crush on your elder brother's friend?

Crush

I got sexually assaulted when I was 7-9 by my dad best mates son. I Haven’t not told my dad or anyone about this and probably never will. The boy who assaulted me was a couple years older then me, age 12 and up maybe. I would stay at their house with my two other sisters every so often and sleep round in his older sisters room (we were friends with her) but if it came to someone having to sleep somewhere else I.e. with that boy it would always be me. Eventually he got me to do have sex and do sexual things with him, and me not knowing about anything thing we were doing I agreed, we ended up calling This thing ‘magnets’ ,so whenever he wanted us to do something he would say ‘do you want to go play magnets in my room’. Only over the past couple of months have a really thought about this in depth and it has only now started to have an effect on me mentally. I have anxiety and depression and this whole thing has really started to worsen those, I have been struggling with this for a while, I want to tell people but then again I don’t, hopefully this post will help me tell people that I love about this and I will finally get some the help that I need.

Depression

I was sexually assaulted a couple years ago and I’ve only realised this year that what happened wasn’t normal and sexual assault and I really want to talk about it and tell my friends but i don’t know how to, please can you give suggestions it would be really really appreciated:)

Self Harm

I am so traumatized my a incident which happened to almost twice and sadly I was unable to do anything. So this incident happened when I was going from my pg to college on it's way a person was coming from somewhere in a bike I don't know why the hell did he touch me inappropriately on my butt . Like he spanked out of no where and I was shocked by the time i realised he increased his speed and he was at a far distance i screamed like anything no body was there to help even i couldn't do anything and he was making some bad gesture towards me it happened yesterday and earlier as well when I was in a hurry to go to college even i literally cover my self like I hide my face as I am allergic to sun but still he can recognise me and he did it twice ,i don't know his face as he use helmet and i didn't even noticed his vehicle number and hate my self for that but I was literally shocked i felt vulnerable now I am scared to go out I feel so disgusted i didn't like his touch i literally want to break his limb but I was literally helpless i didn't knew about his intentions. I'm an introvert I don't even talk to many ppl I don't even have many friends here as I living away from home. I shared all this with my parents and friends they told me to be quiet cause if his male ego would be altered he can do worse. But I am so traumatized i literally came back to home all sacred i don't know what to do.

Anxiety

I don't know why I am sharing this but I feel like I have kept this to myself for too long and I can't hold it in anymore, this is part of my life...I've never told anyone this before so, yeah.

When I was around 7 my brother started sexually harassing me and my sisters soon that turned into rape. I was very young so I didn't really think anything about it but I still felt something was wrong with it. He continued to rape and sexually harass me and my sisters until he got a scholarship and moved to board school. After a year there he said he had changed but that summer...he harassed and raped my twin sister. Finally, in 2018-2019 my twin sister built up enough courage and told my mom. (around a month before we turned 11)  When my mom figured it out it seemed like she had no reaction so I don't know exactly how she felt. My brother apologized to me and my sisters when I was around 11 and even though I want to believe him...it still feels like there's a possibility he will do it again.

I'm now 12, my family has moved to 6 different houses, and me and my sister to 7 different schools- we are now currently homeschooled and barely allowed outside. My first ever pet died on Saturday my brother has one year left in the boarding school and is coming back to live at my mom's house, CPS has been called on my family three times and I don't have any friends. My older sister constantly body shames me, my twin has started to develop suicidal thoughts and my mom has developed compulsive hoarding. My family now has mandatory family counseling. 

And my father? I haven't seen him in 1/2 months and barely see him 10 days a year.

How am I supposed to get through this?

Confusion

Is it normal to crave physical human touch? Or is something wrong with me?

Lonely

So basically I have a huge crush on my brothers friend. And I am actually trying to get over it because I don’t think he likes me in that way and sometimes I get hurt. This is soooo hard because I met him very often, and when we sleep next to each other we hug and sleep , so this all makes it very hard. And the worst part is he is very very close to my cousin sister and I feel he likes her more than me , like in terms of friendship. I know him for more than 7 years and they know each other for less than 2 years , it hurts.  So like I am really trying to forget him but it’s sooo hard. I try ignoring him and inside that’s killing me. I really dont know what to do. 

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