Sometimes we think we want to disappear but all we really want is to be found

3am Thoughts

I just want to end it all
I want to give up

Suicidal Ideation

I feel stuck in life ! Sometimes I wish to do so many things!! Painting, photography, writing .. I feel I dnt have any talent !! I am good at nothing rather than being boring and lonely!! I have no one to share my thoughts!! Ehen I try to express how I feel I am being mocked !! People around think I am not mature !! I like living with nostalgia!! Whatever I do wherever I go !! I just keep dreaming!! I always have thoughts in mind!! I am not 100 persrnt in present! I don’t like living jn present !! I

Nostalgia

I m highly sensitive girl who easily get emotional (i ll not say on small things coz i think my problms are big any one will get emotional if he/she is in place of mine) how can i deal with it or how can i improve myself?

For all I know, maybe everyone is screaming as they go through life, silently.

I feel lost. It's like the entire universe is moving forward but here I am stuck in a place. A place filled with darkness and demons devouring on my thoughts. 
I always used to be on the top of my class. I stood first in my entire school while I was depressed and self harming. But now the scenario has changed, I no longer indulge in self-harm but my grades are goind down. It's like I've unlocked a whole new level of depression.
I've tried everything to cure myself on my own but to no avail. I want to seek therapy but I fear it costs a lot. I'm afraid my Indian parents would take my situation lightly just like they joke about depression. What should I do? 

Depression

Reached home after 60days , overwhelmed 

In all my 17 years, I have just recently found this site, and I need to get all of my feelings out somewhere, as I'm sure you all are thinking as well or you probably wouldn't be here. I do have depression, but I don't have the type of background that this would be expected of. I've never endured traumatic scenarios, I haven't lost close loved ones, and I have a good support system. There is no reason for me to be like this, but that doesn't stop me from the feeling of persistent numbness that occurs at random times. I can be doing something as simple as making a meal or walking down a hallway in school and it will hit me like a ton of bricks. It usually lasts a while as well - the feeling of nothing. It's hard to understand what that is like unless you experience it yourself, so I thought this would be a good platform to discuss it. I've been unhappy with who I am. There is an ideal version of me out there that I just keep trying to strive for and it's seemingly more distant the more I try to get there. I have wanted to die. I think to myself "what is the point of living if this is what it feels like?". I've gone as far as attempting it. I have wanted so badly to just give it all up.
However, there is a feeling that keeps showing up right when I need it to. It is indescribable, there is no word for it that seems to fit, but I will try my best to explain. It's like when you're in a car, by yourself or with your favorite people, in the middle of the night driving through a city that is busy and chaotic during the day, but tranquil and abandoned at night. You are listening to music that actually makes you feel something, and you are able to forget about all that worries you and you can live simply in that moment. It seems to provoke a feeling of longing for all that was and all that has yet to be, but in a good way. You stop caring about all that has wronged you in the past, and you live for all the good that has been right infront of you the entire time. 
And if for nothing else, staying alive for this feeling alone is worth it, I can promise you that. 
If any of you even understand what I am talking about please respond and tell me about what provokes this feeling within you!
 

Mental Health

Recently I have felt like I have so many bottled-up emotions. I feel as though I could explode... So many things stress me out as well. At times, everything is just too much for me and I break down into tears. When this happens I tend to be in my bedroom alone and try to be as quiet as possible. I don't want my family to hear me crying or being upset. I don't want them to worry about me. My parents have already gone through so much throughout their lives. I would hate it if I made things worse for them. Anyway, I feel like I need to get through this myself. My family members have their own problems and issues to solve. So, I think I am going to deal with mine too. Or at least try to. However, sometimes I feel too overwhelmed by my thoughts. I have realized that I tend to overthink things a lot. I think about what I could have said in certain situations. I also think a lot about how I could change things and make everything better if time travel existed. I have really wanted to just go back in time. To those good days where I was so happy and didn't have any worries at all. I miss being a young child and clueless. When I was younger I was interested in the simplest things. I also didn't think about what I could have done or what could happen. I was always in the present and happy. Now, in my teens, I am just lost and going through so much. Hopefully, I will keep pushing through and become a bit happier soon...

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