Sometimes we know where we are headed. Sometimes we don't. The days where we don't know what we want, and we just go with the flow, are the days that actually make the best of our memories. 

Other

Memories bring back you

3am Thoughts

And sometimes, against all odds , all logic, we still hope - 
Y ??

Exhausted

Have you ever experienced love at first sight? If yes, does it lasted?💕👫

Boyfriend

Hey it's been a minute, I don't even need to ask how you're doing I already know you're doing great I want to say congrats but I hate it. I want you to cry, I want you to hurt, I want you to feel guilty, I want you to be alone, is it bad of me to say that? I hate you but I still love you and I hate myself even more for not being able to say it, if I saw you now ill probably tear up and apologize instead. Sometimes I think you feel the same, I think you truly cared and loved me, sometimes I just think you hated me. You made me feel so small, wich is unlike me. You got the worst of me, what I've turned out to be its all your fault now my heart is filled with resentment, envy and hatred. How are you going to make up for the damage you've done? Is it my fault for never standing up for myself, for letting you treat me howaver you wanted, for falling for you and never telling you? I never ever would have thought we'd end up this way. Now you're out there smiling with your friends, shoving your relationship with your boyfriend all over everyone's faces. Wow, It's so crazy how the tables can turn against you overnight. Don't you at least feel a little bit bad? How can you look at me like that? I pretend I'm fine cuz I still got pride but it's so easy to see through me, everyone knows how lonely I am, how can you look at like I'm just anyone else? I always thought I was a step ahead but reality hit me in the head, turns out I'm not much and everyone wants you, not me. No matter what I do they'll always be by your side, the audacity people have and all bc of convenience. I'm so fucking stupid, how could I ever feel anything for you? And how could I allow you to treat me like shit just bc of it? And I know this is my fault as well bc I did distance myself from you without saying anything, maybe after all its all my fault my fears and insecurities made me lose everyone, ever since I can't stand myself being near anyone. But still, you didn't seem to be bothered, you never asked me what was going on, you did well without me. When that was you, all those many times that was you, I always came looking after you, why didn't you do the same? I was waiting for you to come to me. I guess I'm the only fool who goes around begging people that want to leave to stay, I should've seen it sooner. It had been a long time since you stopped caring. Now what do I do? Who do I tell?

I hope all of you find the peace that you are looking for. I hope all of you are released from the demons of pain that plague you and the darkness that surrounds you, I hope it gives way to light. I hope you get the closure you are frantically seeking and the love you look for finds it way to you. I hope you are hugged like there is no tomorrow and cared for intensely. I hope you get inspired everyday and have fire in you that propels you towards growth. I hope you get the best. Take care my dear empath amigos. Sending you loads of love, hugs, warmth and positivity

Life

I am having problems remembering things about people . I get connected and then forget what all we talked about and forget who is that person unless i am reminded or read the previous texts . 

My hard drive is failing since years ...... Not just about people ...... I forget other things too ...... I take screenshots to remember and those screenshots are then rarely opened . 
Maybe the cache is full ? 

So you don't have the time to meet me but you can go out with all your friends.
Say your tired to return my texts but your online.
Say your always here for me but your really never around.
Say that I am the one giving up on us but it's not really 'us' anymore is it?
How am I suppose to stay when you can't even treat me right? 
How did we go from talking about everything to not even know about our whereabouts?
 You know how much it hurts when I get to know what you have been upto from others?  
That stinging pain that we are not what we used to be
How did we even get here?



There's a good of friend of mine who introduced me to one of his colleagues, and for me it was love at first sight. Idk about him, probably he felt nothing in my respect. Uhh, idk what to do.

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